My partner has been a serving solider for the last 20years. Our life was ripped to peices in may when his behaviour became erratic. He became angry, not himself and was diagnosed with depression. In august he told me he wanted to die. He attempted suicide twice. All our wedding savings have been spent on therapy. Things have improved for my partner but he is riddled with guilt that our savings have been spent on his therapy. All he wants is for us to be married. For me to be able to organise this would be a dream come true.