i havent seen my father in nearly five years because we where going through a lot of family issue where he ended up kicking me out etc... thing happened to me where it shudnt happen to any women and lose their child for that aswell... where my father told me i deserved everything that happened, which is when i last saw my father as he hurt me soo much, for the past five years i have been living on my own and doing evrything else on my own.... i missed my dad over these years because he was my hero, my night and shinning armer, he was everything to me but i suppose after things change... i got a phone call of my mummy where she was crying down the phone debating how he can tell me such bad news when i for some reason thought what she was going to say to me.... it devistated me when my mum told me "im going to tell you one thing, your dad loved you even though it seemed like he hated you to bits, he loved you so much the pain of losing his daughter killed him, his last words where for me to tell you he is sorry for what he said to you that day" i love you dad and i will always love you xx