Hi this is very hard for me to do as i know how judgmental some people can be me and my partner have been together for 12 years and unfortunately for reasons that are private my partner cant have kids we have tried for ivf through the nhs but because my partner has 2 kids from a previous marriage the nhs wont help us wich i think is unfair as thats like getting punished for something you had no control over this is our only option we are saving every penny possible im 34 so as they say the older you get the less chance of becoming pregnant now im sitting thinking that i will never be a mother and have that special bond that mums and children do sadly i lost my mam when i was 17 to the horrible disease cancer she was only 42 and i feel so lost without her i want to beable to have the bond i did with my mum and have someone to love forever and for me to have someone who loves me forever its so hard writing this please make our dreams come true and help us get our happy ever after everytime i see kids now it breaks my heart as i just want to have my own little family and as a woman knowing you might never have your own child is gut wrenching thankyou very much for reading our story and any help big or small will be greatly appreciated thanks again for reading please share with your friends and family xxx Godbless you all xxx