I'm sure many of you are experiencing grief at the mo whether its loss of a loved one, job,your liberty the list is endless. 

It's a very difficult time, the feelings that can come up can make us feel uncomfortable, you just want the old you back but you know that you will always be changed. 

We have a choice. We can face the pain and allow this time to shape us and not define us. And I've worked very hard over the last nearly 5 years to do that. But I find myself back in this familiar terrorty due to this pandemic and I feel tired. Tired of battling the grief, the trauma that both Grace and I experienced. And I notice a change in my daughter. Shes too young to understand that this pandemic may be touching those memories. Shes lost again not someone physically  this time and I pray this doesn't happen but a separation from her family and loved ones. 

I know we will be ok. We have been here before and we didn't just survive but we thrived. And this wonderful charity helped us and may very well again in the near future. But it does need help too. So I can either sit in those dark moments or I can show my daughter we have that choice. This week has been the toughest, I am struggling with being alone and feeling like I've reversed to the beginning.  I know this is not true because not every atom of me is in excruciating pain. And I refuse to give into it. So we as a family will do something positive, we will decide to let this shape us, we will simply choose. 

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