I am your regular lively outgoing 24 year old lad on the surface.

However, behind all the smiles and over the top attitude I have been battling with depression for many years. Battling through 8 lost jobs, regular binge drinking, and pulled myself out of a drug addiction.

I thought I could do things on my own.

Finally after coming to terms with and accepting my problem the NHS have very little they can do for you and I am on an 8 month waiting list.

Very recently while on this waiting list I gave up and tried to end my life via an overdose of mixed over the counter medicines. Including my anti-depressants.
Rather stupidly or more fortunately one of the reasons I am still here is one of the random meds I grabbed actually counteracted what could have been fatal.

Maybe it's a sign, maybe I just got lucky. Either way I would like to give life another shot and stop hearing people tell me I've got so much potential.

I'm going to have to get private help soon or I fear I may screw things up again.

Please help!