hello ,

i have been ill for 15 years and i desperately want to get back to work and start my own "house painting " business , i dont have anyone to help me no family friends iam completely alone i cannot get loans because iam longterm unemployed its very difficult for me ive been very depressed with suicidal thoughts i need help to get funds to start my business i will be most grateful and very appreciative if anyone could help me with donations i want to also offer work to other people when i start my business , i have thought many times i dont want to live ,living with cancer is so stressfull i have dempt about being my own boss and working and i see other painter/decorators in their vans and i think i would love to be like them ! but ive been unemployed i cannot get funding i so very much want to have my own business ,all donations will be appreciated .