On April the 1st 2017 my beautiful Mum sadly passed away. I'd like to speak openly about this in hope to raise awareness and hopefully help someone in talking about there problems. I lost my dear Mum to depression and psychosis.
My mother was a strong and a courages woman, she was funny and she was caring. She was my Mum.
Sadly worrying about finances, some bad side affects to medications and her loose of appetite got the better of her.
Mum knew she was poorly but fear was the beginning of the end, doesn't sound believable does it. But it's true, she was so scared she couldn't eat. Which shut her brain and her body down so much that the doctors couldn't keep her alive being force fed and on a drip any more for her own dignity. So my Dad and I had to make the horrendous decision to let Mum go at the age of 73.
So my reason for writing this is, no matter how bad the situation, no matter how scared you are, no matter how alone you feel please please please ask for help. We all bottle things up and let them eat us up, but to share how you feel is so so important.
Everyday I feel guilty and that I should have done more to help my Mum, If only she had spoke to Dad or I about her fears and worries then maybe today I would be telling a different story. This I will never know. I do know I miss her, everyday so so much and It breaks my heat to know I'll never speak to her again.
On August the 12th I will be holding a charity day in memory of my dear Mum. Myself and my colleagues at Jolie Rouge will be tattooing Cats from our flash all day. My mum loved cats, which is where I get my obsession from!
All the money will be going to the mental health charity, MIND.
Thank you for those who took the time to read this, and will come join us getting involved in helping this very dark illness. Its taken a lot for me talk about this as it's been the hardest time of my life but the thought of someone else going through what my family have been through would be devastating.
For any one who can't make the charity day but wishes to donate to this amazing charity I have set up this Just Giving page, all donations welcome no matter how big or small. Thank you.
Be great if anyone wants to get involved in tattooing / make prints etc - please drop me an email - firstname.lastname@example.org Thank you 💖