Corrina's Skydive in memory of Denver page
Fundraising for PIPS Suicide Prevention Northern Ireland
PIPS Newry & Mourne was established in 2003 by people who had experienced suicide in their families. The organisations aims are to help save lives, support those affected by suicide and self-harm and provide suicide prevention training and education workshops
I will be doing a skydive from 13,000 feet, on Saturday 25th March 2017 with P. I. P. S. newry.
This charity is very dear to our hearts as you all probably know that we lost a very dear brother to suicide in April 2016.
It's coming up to a year soon since I last got to speak , see and hug you. I can still see you as I drove away smiling and waving at you. That day and months previous are etched into my brain. I never thought I would have to experience this sort of pain. My heart feels like it's been ripped out of my chest, I feel sick with grief and sometimes can't breath with the pain. It's very difficult to explain in words. Some people think after a few months that I should be over it and get on with my life, but I don't know a life without you in it. They think "ok, everyone has problems, now move on " he's dead , get over it and stop going on, "your not the only one who has problems. Well to me your not that easy to "get over!" and your not a problem, your my beautiful little brother and I will always talk about you and hold you close to my heart. I was truly blessed to have had the gift of having you play such an important part of my life for 33 years and I thank you so much for that. Not a minute goes by when your not on my mind. I absolutely hate this awful distance that has come between us, I miss you so so much and life is never going to be the same without you, so many times I have contemplated joining you, but I know as a survivor and loved one you left behind in the aftermath that that is not a good choice. It's a very hard choice but I know that wouldn't solve anything but would just be selfish of me. I need to be here for you, Alice , Holly and Alfie and all the rest of our family to keep you alive and tell them what a fantastic daddy , husband, uncle, son and brother they had and tell them all my memories of the times we shared. You and I were inseparable as children and even when we grew up and had our own children we always had and will have our special bond. You always were a heart breaker and still are. Your loss was so devastating to so many people and because of your horrific disease you couldn't see that. We love and miss you so much We are doing this in your memory and to raise awareness for mental health. We don't want people to go through the pain that we are experiencing.
Love you lots like jelly tots Denver you brave and fantastic human being that you are. Thank you for loving us. Xxx
Mental illness is an invisible illness doesn't show itself in a tumour or physical disability. It has long been a taboo subject, but this shouldn't be the case, people need to talk. Talking is the first step to getting help, a brave step at that, don't be ashamed for being human. I am suffering with depression and lots of people round you are too, they might be sitting beside you right now. Many of these people suffering with these difficulties are the best actors you will ever meet, they won't admit to this as they don't want to be a burden or annoy you. They will go about their daily business smiling and laughing and chatting away covering up with joviality and good humour so as not to upset anyone. These people will go out of their way to help us without even thinking twice. They could be at their lowest ebb, but they won't burden you with that, they will help you the best they can. My beautiful, clever, funny, loving and generous little brother was one of those people our hearts are torn apart because of his passing.That bright shining light that he brought to a room has been extinguished. We are going to have to work hard together for that light to come back into our lives and because of the fantastic family and friends we have it will happen, because??? WE TALK.
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