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Running my first ever marathon to raise awareness for Fibromyalgia Action because my wife is in constant pain from it

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Fibromyalgia Action

We Provide information and support research to Improve treatment options for FM.

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So here I am. 42 years old and never run a marathon. Why now? I have really struggled for years to come to terms with my wifes Fibromyalgia. I dont think I truly understood to begin with. I had horrible selfish thoughts like shes lazy, nowt wrong with her and various other thoughts that Im far from proud of. Now Im telling the world what an awful human being I am for having these thoughts. To everyone Lynn looks like a perfectly healthy 39 year old and yet she is far from it. I see her struggling to stand up, cracking and creaking as she does so. I lie next to her in bed and waken with her tossing and turning, twitching or getting up in the middle of the night for pain relief. I watch her struggle climbing up or down stairs. I see the woman I love grimacing at the slightest playful tap from our gorgeous 5 year old daughter. My heart breaks when my daughter and I are running, jumping, play fighting, swimming, cycling and taking part in every other activity that we enjoy. Lynn tries to get involved but very quickly flounders with the pain and merely watches from the sidelines so to speak. I see the disappointment and sadness in her eyes at being physically unable to take part. I feel guilty that I get frustrated when my daughter begs her to join in but she cant. Has my wife gave up trying? Not a chance, she battles every day just to get up and get herself clothed and our daughter ready for school. Some days if she feels okay she will walk to school and then spend the rest of the morning recovering. Lynn is also a type 1 diabetic which doesnt exactly help! I cant help her on weekdays as Im in the miltary and spend my working week 200 miles away. She does it all herself. I am very very proud of her. Unfortunately Im not so good at expressing this to her. I feel that she thinks Im saying it because I have to. Im not. Were a bit like chalk and cheese as Im somewhat of a bundle of energy. We dont know what the future holds but hopefully by raising awareness and hopefully some money then others may benefit. Why a marathon? For me its going to be very tough to complete but every time my mind or body wants to give up I will think about Lynn and her constant pain. I have paid my own entry fee as I didnt want FMAUK using hard earned charity money for me to run. I see a lot of things online about free entry to various running events if you run for charity. I prefer to pay my own way and simply raise awareness and hopefully a little money. If you have read my story then my mission is complete. I have helped raise awareness of Fibromyalgia. However if you are able to make a donation Lynn and I would be very grateful. Thank you.

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