In three months time, it will be a year since we lost George. May 12th. I want to do something positive. I want to transform the pain into something beautiful. I want to do something positive to remember George, Meadow, Wallace, Winnie and our little star, the 5 loves we lost to miscarriage last year.
Since starting on our journey of love and loss, I have listened to Christina Perri's song, A Thousand Years, a lot. The lyrics speak to me when I think of my babies. I will love you for a thousand years. I will be brave. 1 step closer. So with that song in mind, I have decided to take on a challenge to honour the memory of the babies we lost.
I am committing to running 1000 minutes in the next three months.
That's 89 days
Just over 11 minutes a day
Well, the hormonal roller coaster of multiple pregnancies and depression has left me 3 stone heavier. I am more than a little bit overweight. And I haven't run in a while. Running used to be my thing - loved it. Running kept my mental health in check. Then I fell pregnant with Boo and spent months throwing up all day and night. And when that ended I had ICP (a pregnancy condition that causes itching). I got out of the habit of running. But it's about time I pick it back up again.
When we lost George, I already had ICP again. Had the pregnancy continued, I know I would have relied on the support of a wonderful charity founded by Jenny Chambers. ICP Support works tirelessly to support women who are pregnant with the condition. Not only that, they lead research meaning that fewer babies are stillborn because of ICP. Let me tell you, when you are diagnosed with a condition that carries an increased risk of still birth (however small the increase), you need support. What this charity does for women, their partners and their babies is phenomenal. So it only seems right, that the charity that I would have relied on during my pregnancy, is the charity that I should fund raise for with this challenge.
1 step closer. Wish me luck.