Hi all, my name is Paul and I am an adult survivor of child abuse by the hands of my biological father!

I was 14/15 at the time, and a gullible child. My mother and father were estranged, divorced many years before and despite many issues with my tea father he at my young age approached me and offered me to go live with him, in the other end of the country - effectively run away from home to live with 'dad' wel things weren't great at home so yea, I packed up and left. Got to where my dad lived and all seemed great. I won't bore you with all the unnecessary details but he got me on drugs, made me almost cut my penis off whilst being masterbated by a disabled man I front of me, after further drugs my father and this man set themselves on me ... sexually.

All that happened 20 long years ago, 20 years I kept it bottled inside me, never spoke to anyone about it publicly I went through stages of depression from age of 17 I was prescribed dothiapin (a strong antidepressant) ended up in a violent relationship with my now ex (she being violent towards me) and still lived in my little 'bubble'.Life changed somewhat when I began working for the NHS, I worked in a peadophile wing at a secure mental hospital and at this time my father who was in his own psychiatric hospital in the south of England got in touch with me, in the manner of "I'm going to escape, find you, and kill you" (at his stage I still hadnt gone public)!Long story shortCouple of years ago, I found my peace, I broke down in front of my GP in tears, came clean about what had happened all those Years ago... and was finally diagnosed correctly with PTSD, got help, and got sorted

I was an ex soldier so for me it was immensely difficult to come clean about something so immensely private and let alone cry !! I now want to build a foundation which will offer counselling, legal help and a wealth of other means including support from other victims to help other adult survivors come forward and rid themselves of their demons. Let them feel the release that they deserve, let them be able to feel free and live life to the fullest. If need be let them get their legal justice and have their perpetrators bought to justice !!

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At 'Break The Silence' we're committed to doing just that, 'breaking the silence' with the help a nation we will open centres across the UK where we will offer face to face support, coffee meetings with other 'victims' and genuine tailor made support and eventual legal assistance for those victims looking for complete closure.

BREAKING THE SILENCE - UNITED - Help us to set this up, and get it launched.It will be a not for profit charity so all funds raised will go too setting up and anyone who wants to be involved are more than welcome!!

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