Hello, im Maria 46,the last few yrs ive been suffering with deep depression,bipolar and acute pancreatitis, I was a chef,loved my job, now I cant work and take 24 tabletes everyday, I live with my youngest son,he works hard so he can move in with his gf, I dont have family here and mum and dad died many yrs ago, because im on benefits I cant afford to do my home, live here for 16 in.the same house, would love to have a new bed, floring in.living room,and do my garden so when my granddaughter comes she can play outside, my home doesnt feel homely, I feel so sad, I know that there is many other causes, ill people, I understand if people won't help, I just wanted a bit of comfort,and im being honest, im an humble person,and anything is welcome. I dont even invite people in, its Always clean but feels so hold. Thanks for reading and God Bless you all. And please dont send me nasty msgs.