Ill be honest ive been in jail for 20 years So dont really deserve anything but i havnt been an arsehole for no reason. I dont tell nobody nothing but when i was 14 years old i was sexually abused by a 48 year old man called glynn payne who lived in trelawney avenue. He recieved 12 months in prison for sexually abusing 6 young boys under the age of 15. I started smoking crack to deal with my pain, anger and the feelings of shame and dirtyness that i felt. i then committed crime to maintain my crack addiction. I then started going to prison. I couldnt deal with the pain so i cut my arms open with razor blades and ive got more stitches in my arm than a duvet cover. But now i have found the woman of my dreams and we want to have a fresh start together. The deposit is £1000 but i aint got that right now. I just hope you dont see this as a sob story coz its not. Maybe its coz im sick of hiding my scars and i wanna let go of the past and have a future.