I am still updating the full story as its hard to write but im sure youll get the idea anyway but please be patient until it is finished, thank you.

ok first a little back story. Ive always been a bit of an outcast and different even as a kid. I was never really a cool kid but i was myself and i was happy. When it came to dating and being sexually active i was no different. Before the age of 15 i had dated 2 guys. 1 when i was 11 who i kissed and 1 when i was 13 who i snogged and dumped pretty quick when he tried to put his hand up my skirt at a school disco. Id never been touched, only knew the basics about sex, had never seen porn and hadnt even explored my body or sexuallity.

I was 15 going to a friends 18th birthday party and decided i would het rather drunk on the way as i knew i couldnt get served when i got there. Anyway i got there and had alot of fun to begin with, then felt rather sick and threw up in the toilets. After some food and alot of water i began to feel much better although i was still under the influence.

The evening began to get later and after all the water consumed i needed the toilet. When i went into the ladies toilet there was a guy in there i knew kissing one of the girls at the party, i thought nothing of it and went about my business. When i came out the cubicle the guy was still there but the girl had gone. He said hi and asked how i was and i replied whilst washing my hands. He then came over and started to kiss me which i didnt mind at first as i had only ever kissed one other guy before. Then he pushed me into a cubicle and locked the door, my innocent and logical brain thought it was just so he didnt get caught in the ladies toilet.

(GRAPHIC CONTENT WARNING) He lifted my top and undid my bra, I wasn't sure what to do I didn't realise what was going on .He grabbed my trousers and underwear and yanked them down to my knees. He started to play with one of my boobs then he rammed his fingers inside me. I don't know how many he inserted but it was really hurting, it felt like he was ripping me up inside. He then undid his trousers and I realised he wanted to have sex.