I am at a cross roads, each night I lay looking at my medication and wonder whether waking up in the morning is really worth it.

I was born with congenital adrenal hyperplasia, I'm a bit different and have had to contend with difficulty my whole life. I was brilliant at my job but had absolutely no right to be as good as I was and a lot of the success I had was achieved through sheer determination.
My brain hasn't developed like everyone else's and I suffer from something called FND on top of other neurological problems such as ms.

The attack worsened my condition. This has attracted all sorts of the wrong types of people into my life and people who only ever wanted to take advantage. I've helped others and I would be remiss to not include more about myself and why this is so difficult to write. I'm proud, I've had to really fight for my life and after having the ability to fight taken away from me and benefits taking such a long time to set up and for the assessments to happen etc I've been left in a lot of debt.

I spent the last of my savings trying to get my health sorted out so people wouldn't look at me for not only being disabled and different but they didn't think I was playing the system or someone who uses their disabilities to not have to work. I've tried, I've tried hard.

I was raped, violently, it broke me mentally and I had a full breakdown, noone was there for me, the police were useless, the NHS have been hit by cuts and just when I was starting to get the help and surgeries I need we got hit by covid.

I'm living in a tiny cold bedroom with a homeless charity who normally house people who are released from the authorities or people with addictions.

I need to move to somewhere I can have a wash, I've not been able to shower for nearly a year now.

I have no money and my benefits dont help, especially during this pandemic I'm on legacy benefits and miss out on the increase.

Please anyone, anything will help, please help give me my life back.