I am ashamed to be asking for help but it's the first time in my life where I cannot just struggle on without assistance.

My story isn't easy to tell as I was raised to keep quiet, not to tell anyone anything about home life etc.

I was raised by a sociopath and an abusive alcoholic - great start eh...

I spent the majority of my childhood looking after the one and trying to please the other with varying degrees of success.

Both my parents suffered with mental illness, I'm not sure if I inherited this along genetically or whether just the nature of my childhood has caused me to be this way.

I have a young child and am a single parent, I am trying my best to be supportive and listen to their anxieties but all the uncertainty in the home is preventing me from being "there" and present to listen and be the parent I should be - this breaks my heart.

I lost my job in a call centre as I developed tinnitus and anxiety due to the nature of the calls I took. I did previously have social phobia/anxiety but the job really turned the dial to 11.

Now I am out of work, living in an area with no employment prospects as it's rural.

I have emergency repairs as we have black mould and the toilet has stopped working due to a macerator failure.

I am concerned as the dangers to health of black mould are well documented.

I would appreciate any help you can give, really anything would help.

The situation is making me feel so broken, I can't sleep, no appetite and constant fear and worry over what will go wrong in the house next.

I am living on credit with fears of bankruptcy and I know at least I have a place to sleep but unless the repairs can be made I will have to abandon the home as it's not fit for habitation without a functioning bathroom.