I have suffered with mental health for about 7 years. My diagnosis is generalised anxiety disorder, insomnia and restless legs syndrome. I have had all of my benefits cut and am currently working more hours then i can manage.

The worst year of my life was 2017. I entered a domestic violence relationship, i was pinned, grabbed to the throat, hit, spat on, and called every name under the sun. It ended with him keeping me up a mountain for 10 hours on boxing day until i admitted i had “cheated”. I had not eaten that day, he took my phone and i didnt know where i was. He was having a drugs related psycotic episode. He wouldnt let me go until i had told him every detail of my cheating. I hadnt cheated but he didnt believe me. He kept saying ”do you want to see your nephews again”. I thought of those beautiful boys and did what i had to, i concocted a lie about me cheated on him so i could go home. He only took me home because i got out of the car and started walking in below freezing degrees.

Blog But the ordeal didnt there, he wouldnt let me go home unless he came with me, he took an overdose in front of me to get me to admit cheated. When he went to the toilet i managed to phone the police. I then had to put up with two weeks of harrassment. I do have a protection order against him now. But those mental/ emtional scars are still there even after 6 months. I thank my lucky stars it wasnt worse, that i physically survived. I have many triggers over what he did. I am a shell of the person i was when i meet him, im so grateful i have an amazing family to support me.

My sister is taking my nephews to Disney, and she knows how much i love disney and invited me. Im working as many hours as i can but im way off my target. I want to make up for last year where i barely saw the boys because of him, i want to make as many memories with them as possible because on that boxing night, i didnt think i would get to, i thought id be dead.

Disney has always been a refuge for me when ive had a really bad day, but even more so the last 6 months, so to me this trip is a once in a lifetime experience, made more special by my beautiful boys. They were and are the light in my life when darkness was all i knew last year.

Any help would be appreciated. If you would like to know more about me please read my blog.

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