I had a hard upbringing after being adopted as a baby.I felt like i just didn't fit in and often got punished for silly things (like dusting around things instead of moving them)When i was about 12 when i got discarded again and was put back into the foster system while they kept the other adopted child! I craved attention so when a older boy paid me attention i grabbed it with both hands.I believed he loved me even when he beat me and controlled every second of my life.but one day he went a bit far throwing me down a set of concrete stairs damaging my back.From then i had to use a wheelchair on bad days.Depression became my best friend.(later i found true love and wed sadly it wasnt to be & he cheated on me)1 day i was walking home after dropping my daughter at school i suddenly collapsed unable to breathe.I was I was rushed to hospital where i remained for almost 2 months with sepsis from a chest infection,They diagnosed me with C.O.P.D.I was only 40years old so i decided to lose weight.i swapped my car for a pushbike and slowly i lost the weight over 18stone, Then one day i got really poorly and ended up coughing up blood,Scared to do anything i pretended it wasnt happening until a mate called for help,once again i was rushed into hospital with pneumonia and pleurisy.After the 4th bout of pneumonia in as many years the bleeding got worse i got rushed to the BRI and had many tests where they found i had a abscess on my lung i was there for 3months the bleeding stopped for a few weeks until oneday i had a coughing fit and brought up so much blood it was like a murder scene!So back to the BRI i go with a hematoma a blood vessel in my lung had sprung a leak a emergency embolisation operation was required to fit coils to stop the bleed.sadly it failed so they tried three more times using other embolisation methods but they failed too.There was only one thing left to try and that was a major operation that they didnt want to do due to me being high risk and a high mortality rate.But they tried everything else and they all failed,So i had a lobectomy to remove most of my lung,i was in ICU for 4 weeks due to complications.Things was looking up i was on the main ward but i suffered respiratory failure and after cpr was rushed back to ICU.Thats when the heart problems started i had endocarditis( dilated cardiomyopathy ) to add to my list.5months later i was given the good news i could go home but the day before i was due to leave i ended up with a infection where they did the operation i needed another operation to drain the puss and fit a drain,(11pints of muck was removed)But by then the damage was done the scaring on my lung was bad and restricted what i could do,Sitting and not moving was fine i could breathe without much difficulty.But walking or even getting washed caused me to breathing trouble and heart palpitations that could send me into respiratory failure again.My manual wheelchair is use less as im unable to push myself as i run out of breath so im stuck indoors unable to leave or do anything unless someone takes me,So my only option is a electric wheelchair and sadly my funds dont stretch that far,So i am reaching out to you in the hope you can help give me my independence back.So i can leave my house when i want and without asking for help.I miss going to visit my daughter and going shopping ect.I miss being me.im not living im just existing life is passing me by.Its so lonely staring at 4 walls 24/7 i long to step outside and be part of the living again.But until i get a electric wheelchair that is not to be and i sink further into depression.

So please if you can help in anyway i will be forever in your debt,Even if you cant afford to help you could still help me by sharing this page on your social media page.

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