This is a long shot but would love to know if there is anyone out there that can help me.

I've had probably the worse last 6 months of my life.

My name is Ben, I'm 29. 6 months ago, I was in a happy 7 year relationship, with 1 child. I had a full time job working 70 hours per week as a bricky. I had money, a house, everything.

5 months ago, just after Christmas, I went out with my friends for a Christmas drink, we do this every year and again was a brilliant night like every year. I had to nip home to change my shirt as I spilt beer all down myself (as you do).
I returned home and to my horror, found my girlfriend in bed with one of my best friends...

BANG!

All whilst my 1 year old daughter was tucked up in the next bedroom.

I couldn't believe my eyes, I didn't want to believe it, instead of me beating the **** out of my 'best friend', I simply turned around and closed the door behind me. Went back to the pub and got very drunk without telling any of my other friends.

Bizarre as it sounded, imagine working hard for your family, no changes in the relationship, devoted all my time with my family after work and on weekends. Never argued with her, always a shoulder for her, helped her through some real tough times and this is how she repays me?

The very next day, I didn't return home, I stayed at my friends house and that is where I remained for the next week without any contact from her. In that time, it got me thinking, is my daughter actually my daughter? She had green eyes, mine are blue. She had dark hair, my hair is blonde. I asked for a DNA test to be done and she agreed with no hesitation.

3 weeks later, now in February of this year. The DNA result came back negative. Long story short, she had been sleeping with my 'best mate's' for over 2 years.

Another BANG! This time I found myself in hospital having heart palpitations and panic/anxiety attacks.

It took a massive chunk out of me, I lost 2 stone in 6 weeks.

It also affected my work, unfortunately after trying so hard to stay focused in my job, I lost it. I lost my job. I lost my girlfriend, soon to be wife, (marriage was planned for January 2020), I lost my daughter, all in the space of 6 months. Although because I have seen my daughter grow up and I know by blood she's not mine, we've agreed that I am able to remain in her life and I want to continue to see her each week.

Unfortunately, as I'm already at the bottom, I can't get any lower, unless your ex decides she wants to move 4 hours away from you with my old 'best mate'.

I currently have no job, which means no income. I have no car, no fixed house, no clothes, I don't even have any family apart from my Grandma to turn to but unfortunately, she's not well. I'm not in the right frame of mind to work although currently I am helping my Grandma out with some hedgecutting, she offers me £100 and obviously I don't take it off her because I love her too much to take money. She somehow managed to squeeze some in my coat last week but I returned it to her as she needs it more than me, or at least I thought she did.

I'm desperate.

I'm asking for help, I'm asking if anyone would be able to spare me any loose change, £5, £1, even 50p and fund me on this GoFundMe page. It doesn't matter how small, I know there is still some beautiful people out there.

I just need a boost, a head start, a way to get my feet back on the ground. I want to see my daughter, I want to get back into work.

Please, help me.