Growing up I always thought I would be a mum one day, having to accept the fact that it may never happen, is not something you can ever prepare yourself for.

Ben & I have been together for 18 years. During which time we’ve lost two angel babies, through miscarriages at 11 and 12 weeks, been through 3 rounds of IUI, and 3 rounds of IVF/ ICSI.  

When I first found out we were pregnant it was as if I had finally found my purpose, and in that instant I fell in love with my unborn baby!

When I miscarried it was as if my heart had been ripped out. I lost my baby and a piece of my own heart that day. We were lucky enough to get pregnant again but sadly I miscarried again.

That second loss broke me again, but after some time I knew I couldn’t give up trying.

After numerous tests, I was diagnosed with PCOS, and began 3 rounds of IUI treatment. When this didn’t work we were referred for IVF, but after 3 cycles we sadly still did not have our baby and were out of support from the NHS.

I am now 36 and diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, so we have decided this is our last chance to have a baby of our own, but due to medical issues to give us the best chance of success, I have to undergo additional treatments, so the cost is higher than anticipated.

Ben is amazing with kids and it breaks my heart that I’ve not been able to watch him with our babies. I want to give him the chance to be the amazing dad he was born to be.

We are lucky enough to be aunt and uncle to 2 gorgeous nephews and 3 beautiful nieces, but we long for a baby of our own everyday.

People ask me why I keep putting myself through the physical stresses and rollercoaster of emotions that come with IVF, but I am a Mum who never got to meet her babies, and in my heart I’m not ready to give up hope.

If you would like to help us have one last try, any donation big or small would be very much appreciated.