Dear Friends, thank you for visiting my JustGiving page:

I'm writing this from the heart, with some reluctance, to ask for your help. I’lll be honest, If you’re planning to donate to a friend's medical emergency, disaster relief or legal aid then i completely understand the importance of those causes and instead would ask that you share this page on to others.

About the project

Four years ago the most important person in my entire life, my mother passed away. I’ve never been the same since. Infact 99% of me died that very day she did.

Many people didn’t know I lost my mum through a stroke that was caused by cancer in April 2015, until the day I went on the X Factor. It's something I've tried to forget yet struggled to come to terms with.... I remember waking up one morning to see that my mum wasn't home. There wasn't anything strange about this as she was always out the door early to go work. However, this particular day her car was still in the drive. Shortly after my dad called to say he was at the hospital and that my mum was in a coma. I drove straight down. My dad, sisters and I stayed by her side until 11pm when we eventually got kicked out. Even though she was in a coma and had been asleep the whole time, I woke up feeling positive the next day, and certain that she was going to be coming home. I tidied her entire room and went to purchase her favourite carrot cake from Nandos. I was so sure she was going to come home. Later on that day, my younger sister and I went back to the hospital. This is when we found out how severe things were and that there was nothing more the doctors could do. They said she had a few hours left to live. My mum went to heaven just after midnight on the 21st of April. Driving home that evening I felt numb and kept wishing i could change so many things. I wrote a song called “Bullet In My Heart” to express my feelings. I wrote the entire song in less than an hour. Till today it’s the fastest song i’ve ever written.

Why I need your help & support via donations and/or sponsorship;

I auditioned for X Factor last summer and it was probably the most liberating thing I’ve ever done in my entire life. I laid bare my hurt and pain for the world to see. It was scary and emotional.

‘Bullet In My Heart’ received over 1 Million views in 24 hours and has continued to reach over 20 million views on social platforms.

I am continuously humbled by the support I have received - especially from those who know how it feels to loose a loved one.

Since the show, I’ve been inspired to open up the conversation about grieving and the effects it has on mental wellbeing.

Usually people do a run, climb a mountain or host a fundraising event, but I’ve never been good at those things so, as a creative, I decided to produce a short film using my song to highlight how EVERYTHING can change in just one day. I have become an ambassador for a children's bereavement charity, ‘Grief Encounter’ - in the hope that we can contribute to their work of helping others grieve.

The short film will be titled ‘Bullet In My Heart’ and will be based on a true story on how I went from celebrating life to being trapped in an everlasting nightmare.

This film aims to comfort those who have lost a loved one yet also serve as a reminder to cherish loved ones and give them flowers whilst they are still here and can smell them.

What the money goes towards.

Actors, Sound, Insurance, Various locations, Equipment, Rentals and purchases, Catering, Costume, Hair and make up, Travel, Marketing, Production expenses , Script writer, Props, Screen premiere and Casting.

I pray you can support my vision financially but also that you help to spread awareness and keep people grieving like myself in your prayers.

This project is yours as much as it is mine so please get in touch if you have any questions or suggestions - jsolbulletinmyheart@gmail.com

What rewards am I offering?

To thank everybody who supports this idea, I’ll reward you handsomely! See the rewards below for more details.

Pledge £1 or more

Virtual High Five!

Every penny towards this project drives us closer to the goal and we’re extremely grateful — so thank you.

Pledge £10 or more

We’ll mention the name of a loved one lost in the “In Loving Memory Of” credit on the end roller of the film! - Just let us know their full name + PLUS all the above.

Pledge £20 or more

Private link of finished film before released to public + PLUS all the above.

Pledge £30 or more

Personalised thank you card, just let us know address to post to + PLUS all the above.

Pledge £40 or more

Are you an artist? Want your artwork featured in the film? Then this reward is for you! We're offering 5 artists the chance to have your artwork featured in the film! It may be hanging on the wall of a set, a screensaver for one of the characters, or something else entirely - but it will be featured in the film!

You'll need to provide us with a digital copy of the piece of art you want featured, and we'll do the rest! (You'll also have to sign a form confirming that you're happy for it to be used in the film in all media in perpetuity!) but the important thing is, YOUR ARTWORK will be out there!

Pledge £50 or more

Promote your business in the film!

You can promote your business in the end roller of the film, where we’ll include your company logo! Just send us a high res black and white logo and you’ll be able to immortalise your business as part of the film + PLUS all the above minus pledge £50

Pledge £100 or more

BE AN "EXTRA" IN THE FILM!

Be in the film! You can have a small role in the film! Wanna see yourself on the silver screen? Then this is the reward for you! + PLUS all the above minus £50 & £100 pledge.

Pledge £150 or more

2 Tickets to the Cast / Crew Screening!

For this kind of pledge, we’d love you to join us! The screening will be held somewhere in London – you’ll be responsible for your own travel and accommodation, but we’ll throw in some free popcorn for you and a guest! + PLUS all the above minus pledge £50 & £100.

Pledge £200 or more

Be an Associate Producer!

Announce to the world that your name is at the end credit of the film as Associate Producer! + PLUS all the above minus pledge £50 & £100.

Pledge £300 or more

Co-Producer front credit!

This amount will REALLY help us out, so we’ll reward you with a substantial credit in the opening credits of the film as a Co-Producer! + PLUS all the above minus pledge £50, £100 & £400

Pledge £500 or more

Executive Producer credit!

You’re inconceivably generous and you’ve put up a whacking great portion of the budget for the film, thank you! We’ll be falling over backwards to say Muchos Gracias, so we’ll give you your very own, single card credit in the opening of the film as an Executive Producer! + PLUS all the above minus pledge £50, £100, £400, £600 and £800

Pledge £1,000 or more

Your company logo @ the start!

We're flabbergasted by this kind of generosity, so we're offering you an amazing reward - the chance to have your company logo displayed alongside the production company logos before the film begins!

This will show the audience that the film was produced in association with your company - and will get your business logo seen by everyone who watches the film - which is a huge potential marketing opportunity for your business! + PLUS all the above minus pledge £50, £100, £400, £600 and £1000

God bless

Stephen aka J-SOL