Ok so the reason I'm asking for help is to reunite with my family in America that I haven't seen in over 20 years and my children have never met before
I don't have any family support here and i haven't for a very long time I have 2 children who also don't see any family

I have never asked for any help with them nor have I asked anyone else to look after them , if I can't do things with then I don't do it at all .

One thing that is very important in life is to have family around you
and from a young age I didn't and don't have family around me.
I grew up around people who have the big family and support from them which made me very jelouse and also made me very depressed,
I felt so alone for many years I was kicked out of my mum's home at 14 forced to live with someone who was a violent bully, i had no one to help me and guide me with my decision making so I left the place I grew up and tried to get as far away as possible I was still very much on my own living in hostels to start with and making bad choices

I became very very depressed and continuing to make bad choices i became involved in a very violent relationship which went on for 4 years I tried to end my life I couldn't understand why I wasn't wanted and why people would treat me this way
I decided I was the only one who could potentially change were my life was going so I
Got a job and somewhere to live on my own yes still
Feeling lonely but it needed to change I feel if I had my family things would have been different for me.

Many years had passed and now I have two beautiful children who I give my all to and all the love I have to give

I want to give them a better start in life and give them some family, the vast majority of my family live overseas so I know
My son does ask the question of family as children in his school talk of them I just want for my children what I didn't have and if they felt they couldn't talk to me they would have other family members to do so