When I close my eyes I see a lifeless body hanging on the ceiling fan. I dread them. I do not want to get into this situation.I want to outgrow my situation and bloom into a strong lady,I dream of completing my master's in robotics. I am stuck with debts. I have wasted my money in derivatives without proper knowledge of it. Now I have so much money in debt I cannot buy my meal. I cannot think about my career. I feel like popping in some sleeping pills and sleep forever. I need money to pay off the debts and start working towards a better present.