My daughter wants to raise some money to pay for a heart defibrillator for her Primary school Causeway Green. She wants to see if people will donate money for this cause has this is so, close to her heart. The reason why she wishes to do this is because, of me - her Mom.

Our story begins Christmas 2015 I wasn't feeling too well the whole time over Christmas. I just put it down to stress of Christmas and the flu coming on. I suffered pains in my chest on and off but, again carried on as normal. When this continued until January I decided to go and get checked out at my Doctors. She was very concerned and said that she was sending me to see a cardiologist. She sent me for loads of blood tests as well I just thought she was just being over the top.Then my appointment came - February 4th. I decided to go on my own whilst my husband took our two children to football club. I was given an ECG and then saw the consultant who kept asking me how I feel and then writing loads of notes. She then told me she was sending me for an angiogram . Again I was like Why ! She then told me the news which hit me like a thunder bolt.The ECG showed I had actually had a silent heart attack. I was stunned. I walked out of the hospital and sat in my car and on the radio the song " I wasn't expecting that" was the tune playing. I just cried and kept thinking about my Husband and children. How was I going to tell him. I decided to think positive I was still here.

I composed myself enough to walk into the football club and collect my husband and children. Of course He wanted to know what had happened. I just smiled and said I,m Ok I,ll tell you later. The next few hours was a bit of a blur until the children went to bed. Then I told him. We were both just in shock for days we were in a daze just getting on with normal things - then a few days later I felt unwell on the Sunday and went to bed - woke up feeling not so good, I still got ready for work and my husband was on nights so, he took the children to school. By the time he came back I couldn't breath properly and was in pain so, he called an ambulance. This was the first of many trips in one of these for me.From that day on I couldn't go to work - my job was stressful and I had to drive long distances so, my Doctor said No. I didn't know but, I had an angina attack and my blood pressure was very high. A few weeks later I wasn't feeling too good so, I went to the doctors who took my blood pressure and then asked me if I was on my own. She was very calm and after much discussion said I could drive home has it wasn't too far but, I needed to go straight to hospital. My blood pressure was sky high and she was worried. After sorting someone to have the children and packing a bag of we went. I was admitted and then had the first angiogram. This time I didn't have any stents. After a few days I came home. For about 8 months I was off work until having to make the decision I wasn't able to go back. I was lots of tablets and was so, unwell. All this time we kept it all from the children. We managed to cover it up so, we didn't worry them. I eventually got a job working at my children;s school Causeway Green first at Lunchtime then in the classroom. Life was a lot less stressful. However, I still kept having angina attacks these would happen whilst watching TV or even when asleep. I carry GT Spray and Aspirin everywhere. Then my cardiologist said that She wanted me to go and have another angiogram. I just thought it would be like before. It was booked for the February half term so, I thought I'd be back at work. This time we had to tell the children what was happening. I went in and then the day after our life changed. I had a couple of angina attacks whilst waiting which was a good thing cause, one doctor was going to send me home. Anyway, I went down and they started the procedure. At first all was well but, then within seconds I was rolling around in pain all I wanted to do was to hold my chest. I could hear the doctors telling me to stay still. I was given morphine and all I could then hear was 2 stents then it went to 5 stents. I came out a bit battered and bruised and in and out of conscious. I had been moved to be hooked up to monitors which saved my life. I ended up feeling sick and then next thing I know loads of doctors and nurses are around my bed and then they whisked me off again for another angiogram. This time in my groin. Afterwards I remember asking them to call my husband. I hadn't a clue what was happening. The next day I was a bit more alert. When my husband came I remember talking to him then again woke up to loads of doctors and nurses, all I thought was where is my husband. I saw him he looked terrified. Then a consultant came and explained that on the table I had a heart attack and that when I passed put the twice that my heart had stopped. They decided to put a pacemaker in. My overnight stay became over a weeks stay without being able to see my children. After two weeks off work I went back. I just wanted a normal life.

I am on lots of tablets still and still carry my GT spray everywhere with me and my children know about my condition. I have pain and shortness of breathe. My children especially my daughter always checks I,m Ok and do I need my spray. I have taught them what they need to do if I am in trouble. I have had a few times in hospital this year.

My daughter knows how important a heart defibrillator is to someone like me. Where ever we go we look to see where one is located. I work at the school and they need one there - the nearest one to the school is too far to save a life.I was 46 when I had my first heart attack. I am lucky cause, I was in the right place to save my life. All the staff at our school have been First Aid trained including how to use a defibrillator - However we have No defibrillator. All donations will go to the school to buy one. We never know when we may need it.

My daughter Gemma has been growing her hair for ages. Her actually hair is being donated to children who need a wig. So who will donate to Gemma's clause. She will be having her hair cut at the end of July.

Thanks for reading our story.