After a 5 year struggle with infertility and recurrent miscarriage James and I fell pregnant for the 5th time. When we didn't miscarry we hoped for an easy pregnancy but carrying monochorionic diamniotic twins this was not to be the case. At 20 weeks we were diagnosed with twin to twin transfusion and on Christmas eve 2014 I knew something was wrong. A scan showed my cervix was shortening and I needed an emergency cervical stitch. From that point onwards we knew our twins would be early but we didn't realise the impact that would have on us. Harry and Dillon arrived at 34 weeks and 2 days and started their life in Royal Devon and Exeter Neonatal Unit. Harry we held 12 hours after he was born, Dillon 24. They were tube feed for the first three weeks of their lives. After three weeks and one day we came home. SNUG reached out to us and it was through SNUG I met other mums who understood the trauma of a premature birth, what it felt like to pump milk in the middle of the night for a baby you couldn't hold and how reassuring the beep of the machines was and how scary it was when that beep was taken away even though it meant the Dr's thought your baby was well enough. SNUG were the reason there were kangaroo care chairs and camp beds so mum's didn't have to go home every night and leave their babies behind. SNUG provided the first safe place for me to take the boys without the fear of germs. SNUG became my lifeline and now it is time to give something back.