I've come to London 6 years ago because the situation in my country didn't look good, I had only my lone mom at my side at that time.

My father divorced my mom when I was 5, he humiliated and beat her up on daily basis so we ran away from him, nowe we live in London, I was used to not causing trouble and just quietly stayed at home, played games and not work at all.

Now I live by myself for about 7 months, my mom and sister was helping me with rent, which is extremely cheap as I chose the worst and cheapest kind of room I could find, and yet I couldn't find work due to my weight, and my body being covered in literally hundreds of bites from bed bugs from our last room where I and my mom lived.

Right now I owe my landlord for 9 weeks of rent, and the 10th week is coming, I attend interviews a lot during the week but I'm not lucky.

I have no food, I eat only 1/3 of a noodle pack for 20p every day, boiled with salt and then fried witch cheap 59p ketchup to give it some flavor, but after months it tastes like nothing.

I considered suicide and researched many ways to kill oneself, all of them seem painful and I still do want to live.

My friends I met while playing games 5 years ago with whom I kept talking with over this course of time come to my town, to London, and they plan to rent a place close to me, our wish is to live together in an aparment, go to work in the morning, then come back and have fun, play games or something like that.

Please help me, I'm out of options.