Well, I cannot begin to explain how stupid i feel.

This is now a period in my life where i will never, Ever walk into a casino again. It hit me last night when i lost around £4600. I walked out the fresh air hit me. this wasn't a bit of fun it was seriously life changing mistake. I could possibly lose my house, My partner and my daughter. All for what felt like a few hours of untouchable pride. Little did i know this is what the casinos thrive off. Here's me thinking i'm doing well and boom addiction takes over winning a few hundred wasn't going to cut it i needed to make alot and then i lost and the £100 i took was ok to lose i planned on taking it as a asset to lose. Then the next thing i did was the most stupid thing i could of done with my life. It could be life finishing now if my partner finds out i still cant believe i did it but hey ho, There are worse people than me i must go on. To alot of you £4600 may not be alot but to me and my partner this would break us. more her than myself but when she is broken and has taken my home and daughter away there wont be much of me left. so i beg for some help of anyone who is willing to give it. if i could find 4500 who would give me just £1 i'd be a saved man. If i could find someone who would go the extra mile help me i'll be forever grateful.

At the end of the day its my mistake and mine alone i'm desperate not to lose my family but if i do its my own fault. I'd never blame anyone else as i did it.

And if i was to some how beat my target i'd have a quick search on here to find anyone doesnt matter how they need help if they genuinely need it. I will pass on you're kindness.

Anyone thinking of going to a casino or online betting dont listen to the adverts when the fun stops. STOP because its bull**** None of it is FUN! so just stop take you're loved ones on a meal and stop thinking of yourself. i wish i did

Last but not least,

Thank you all even for just reading this.