Hi everyone, so as most of you know im 30 this month... and well lets just say the kast 3 years have been hell!!

So I got with my fiance 4 years ago and we oretty much know right away wed want a family together except i already knew i couldnt conceive naturally so i was open and honest from the start... John was understanding and so we began all the tests etc for fertility treatment... 3 hellish months of failed chlomid cycles and then two years of saving for IVF...

we saved our backsides iff and we had help from our amazing friends and family and we finaly got there this year... may 2018!

long story short everytting was going wrong from the start... I had a teaction and had to stop the pill early so i bled early which meant i had a week to explain to work ( who might I add had been amazing and so supportive ) that i was flying out to prague the week after! So we booked our flights our THREE hotels because its not a tourist destination so one just was not available it had to be three seperate ones Costing us more money, I had my follicle scan way too early as my appointment was messed up so I then had to pay for another scan a few days later costing more un planned money... then on the way to the aurport i get a text saying iur flight was delayed meaning we would miss the last train from orague to olomouc that night meaning we would have to sleep in the airport or find a hotel so we had to pay more money for a hotel that night ( making it now 4 hotels we would be staying in... keep up it gets worse! )

ok so after that stress and the stress of having expensive medication on us that needed to be kept cool and well our flight was delayed in a sweaty airport... que me nearly having heart failire with stress! airhostesses on the plain where amazing and jept our meds cool for us thank god...

We then got there finally and got to our first hotel... got a lively upgrade ( that they tried to charge us for upon checking out... haha ) first scan in olomouc again shown our follicles werent growing and this was make or break we had to have our meds upped from 150 a day to 200 costing more money as this injection is expensive!

moving on we had so much stress out there in the end and going through this difficult orocess youre meant to be as telaxed a spossible but so much was going wrong for us... we then went for our final scan and they had grown YAY!

it was good news for us but also stress and more stress as we had to rong our works and make arrangements for extra time off etc costing us wages... costing us more money for an extra TWO hotels costing us money to chane our flights and trains!!

ok so fast forward 6 hotels in total one that set on fire causing more stress and drama!

then we get to the good bit... 6 eggs collected wooooop 5 if those bad boys fertilised but only 3 got to day 5, 2 of those where early blastocycts and one was poor quality so we just had our two early blastocyts put back on May 23rd 2018! Yay we are now officlay pupo ( pregnant until proven otherwise ) fats forward again home time friday 25th may 2018 surprised our family who expected us home the sunday hehe!

We where all so confidnet that this had worked i got my hopes up i got excited and started honking so far into our future!!

Fast forward to 8dp5dt ( 8 days past a 5 day transfer ) and i was in horrific pain so i we t to the Drs out of hours who said my test was positive but very faint what?!? Positive?!? Anyway heart rate was high and i was in agony so was sent to warrington hospital... bloods killed me off as it was NEGATIVE! How can this be a Dr has just sat and told me and my fiance its positove what is going on?!? Que me crying for the last 3 days as i am now 11dp5dt and its game iver officialy as ive been in hospital again all day today and just got home! Exhausted with the pains and the emotional trauma the whole month has caused!

We have spent so much extra money that we hadnt catered for... but we are so beyond desperate to get back out there before the end of this year!!

So all we are asking is nothing more than £1 each from all of our friends and family to kick start our next round as every £1 will help us reach our ultimate goal... for me to be a mum and for john to have another baby and for us to gove Lily a brother ir sister or two!

Thanks everyone for reading for all of your continued love and support!! Xxxx