Having suffered with major depressive and anxiety disorder for the last 15 years its been a struggle to have normal days and keep money coming into our household. I had to go self employed to be able to accomodate the days I was in a slump or so worked up a struggle to go out. Alcohol was my self medication to allow me to sometimes get out of the house. Then our unexpected twins arrived putting more stress and anxiety on the situation. I am happy to say however its coming up 12 months of me not touching alcohol and being mentally stable for the first time in so many years its hard to remember. My illness has caused financial difficulty and im working all the hours just to manage to make mortgage payments. My illness has took its toll and because of my history we are in severe financial hardship and im doing my best to keep going. I cannot get a loan to allow me to buy a van to save money on the financial hole im in (im paying £700 a month to a leasing company through a courier firm im self employed with). If i could get any help or a just a break to allow me to get my own van i can earn more money, helping my family of 5 kids and my wife and i want to self build our loft conversion, so myself and my wife can stop sleeping on our living room floor and have a room for the kids and ourselves. I hope people out there may help. Im at my wits end and all the good work ive done for my mental health is being pushed back with our horrible financial red loop we are stuck in. If i can raise this money i will pay £ 100 a month to MIND or a local mental health charity to give back your generosity. I know the amount ive asked for isnt enough for all i asked to do, but it will get me further on the road to recovery and a start, and id be eternally grateful. Thanks for reading my long winded cry for help and thank you. X

Jim