On the 9th of August 2015 our little boy was born stillborn at 33 weeks. Shaney Junior. He was a tiny 3lb 9oz and was born at 1.40am. Mine and Shanes 1st year wedding anniversary.
Finding out Shaney had died on the 4th of August and carrying him still until he was born on the 9th was hard but also in some weird way very comforting.
Giving birth to our little boy and hoping in some way the midwifes and doctors got it wrong hoping and praying he comes out crying. He didn't :(
He was perfect. He was beautiful. He was our little angel.
Coming home and knowing we are leaving him was hard. We didn't want to leave him. we wanted to stay with him. we didn't want to let go. But we had to ,Me snd Shane had to tell his older brothers that Shaney has gone to heaven. Seeing my boys heartbreak broke my heart all over again. We had to sort his funeral something that we'd never would of thought we'd have to do for my own child. Things like this you don't actually realise how expensive it really is. Shaney was worth it tho! He deserved the best send off which he had.
It's been nearly 2 years since Shaneys death. We love going over the cementry to see Shaney but there's one thing missing and that's his headstone. I promised him that this year he will have his headstone. I'm saving as much as we can. It's a real struggle and it's upsetting to think what if we don't manage it this year, how can I break my promise. So I'm asking just for a little bit of help! It would mean so much to Me, Shane and Shaneys older brothers.