IT IS WITH A HEAVY HEART THAT I HAVE TO PUT MY PRIDE ASSIDE, SET THE EXAMPLE TO MY FAMILY (OFF NEVER GIVING UP) AND BEG FOR YOUR HELP. After agonising over going public to ask for your generous help for what feels like lightyears, I have decided to make this appeal. If I could I would sell my house, but I don't have time. TIME is my number 1 enemy right now! TIME waits for no-one, we all think we have a lot off time to do the things we want to. Please believe me when I tell you, TIME is the one thing in life that does not have patience.

"GO HOME AND GET YOUR AFFAIRS IN ORDER" I have been told.

I cannot do that without fighting back. Please, PLEASE I need your help. I urgently need Immunotherapy to either save my life or at the very least extend my life. If I could stand in front off you all on my knees and beg, I would.

I have spoken to experts in their field in Germany, France, the USA and the UAE and they can help me beat this monster. The PET CT scan has revealed what we have been warned to expect I cannot access treatment pathways because I cannot afford to pay for it privately, and must simply wait for the inevitable to happen. I have been assured that their is in fact hope, I just need to get the treatment paid for and get myself to the treatment centre. I would like to take my family with me, as you can imagine this is not going to be an easy road to travel, especially on my own. We have done the maths and it would be more cost effective, not necessarily more comfortable, to rent either an apartment or small house whilst receiving treatment. Should I not be able to raise enough to take my family with me, I will have to go on my own, but as you can imagine I would rather avoid this option. The sheer amount of pain I am in is enough to drive the sane insane, but I soldier on - for my family. I want to see my boys set on their life path, I want to see my boys fall in love, get married, have children. I WANT TO LIVE but I am rapidly running out off time and if I don't start the treatment soon, I fear it might be to late. Should I not be able to find a furnished apartment or small house, I will sleep on the floor if I have to, I have done it before, I can do it again. Anything, I will do anything to safe my live and I know with your help I can do exactly that.

I am a mother, a wife and our little family off four cannot allowed to become a family off 3. You see, whilst my husband has extended family, I don't. My father passed away after contracting Malaria when I was just 6 years old, and that is when my life became one off never ending challenges, pain and suffering with a few interspersed moments of happiness.

I met my husband, we married, had our two amazing boys and because off numerous reasons, I decided to throw my entire life into raising my family and being the very best mother I can be, the best wife I can be, the best ME I can be. I was not going to allow the horrors off my childhood to affect my adulthood and the rest off my life. I was going to set my own moral compass, one which I passed onto my family and one I live by daily: accept differences, count your blessings every day, be grateful, be kind, express thanks in all circumstances, harm no one, love all animals, imagine and dream more, forgive, always jettison anger, give freely, keep confidences, truly love, always strive to make everyday a masterpiece, hope must always be nurtured, open your mind to every possibility and opportunity, quell rumours, never gossip, reciprocate, constantly seek wisdom, strive to touch hearts and souls, approach all situations with understanding and gratitude and love, value the truth, when you win do so graciously, yearn for peace and to find and zealously support a worthy cause.

Like all humans, I to have a bucket list. Mine has just got a lot shorter and far more urgent. With the money I am hoping to raise, I will pay for my treatment, hopefully take my family with me if enough money is raised, if not, I shall go on my own, I want to try and take my family on one final holiday should the inevitable become my absolute reality in order for us to create those last precious, unforgettable, everlasting memories. Like I have taught my children, DREAM and right now I have to dream about recovery and believe YOU are going to help me achieve that recovery.

I really don't know what else to say, other than PLEASE if you can find it in your heart to help me, I will forever be in your debt.

Thank you for reading my story and your kind consideration. Again, I beg, please, PLEASE, be the knights in shining armour I so desperately need right now.