In February 2017 I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression, causing me to have low self esteem, not socialising, anxious when alone or on the street, felt like people was watching me all the time, I had no motivation to do anything or even get out of bed, I'd cry constantly even though nothings upset me, I'll be angry all the time and have a barrier up. But the worst thing I had to face was suicidal thoughts i knew i wouldn't harm myself but every time I closed my eyes I had these thoughts that I couldnt shake off. Sometimes it feels like a black hole but sometimes it feels like I need to cry and scream and kick and shout. Sometimes I go quiet and lock myself in my room and sometimes I have to be doing something at all times of the day to distract myself.

**Depression can go undiagnosed for years until sonething triggers it off!

i felt it helped me to tell people about my depression so they understood my moods, it's hard for family or friends to accept or understand depression but once they understand a weight has been lifted off your shoulders and you have all the support you can get. My journey has come far! My medication is working and I feel like I have my life back again!