I am a mother of 2 beautiful girls. my oldest 5 Rayanne, lives with her dad. I have Amelia who lives with me and will be 2 in December. I am a care leaver and don't have much support around me especially when it comes to help with my child (babysitting) Being a young mother 24/7 is really hard and stressful, i do have depression and anxiety, which makes leaving the house even to go shopping or to the park really hard. I am very shy and lack confidence and have low self-esteem. I have my one bedroom flat which i have been in since i left care at 17 i am now 21.

I struggle financially daily constantly worrying if my electric will run out or if ill have enough money for food nappies etc. I dont have many people to turn to for help. Its near impossible for me to save any money as i am on benefits and spend every penny wisely on essentials.

I have been through alot since my first child. I was 16 when i gave birth, i was in an abusive relationship with a narssassistic man whom still remains in my life damaging me and my children. He was a volunteer at a youth centre back then i was 14 he was 24. We got together and he actually got charged for child abduction with me from my carehome who had made the restraining order be put on him, but he broke that And now he can no longer work with children or vulnerable adults. I then later got pregnant with him, i turned 16 and got the order dropped, about a year later he applied for custody over her and it was granted. I was vulnerable, couldnt stand up for myself to social workers etc. I only had the abusive man to rely on and he used me. I lost my child to him, and he got away with it! These have been the most painful head torturing few years of my life, I went on to have another child with him, but i learnt from my mistakes i did not have him there for support. I didnt put his name on her birth certificate, to give him no legal rights. Amelia is nearly 2 and he barely has any involvement. When he alllued to court for the custody oder there was an order put in place where i get to have rayanne, 2nights every fortnight. He doesnt adhere to this and has missed about 50% of contact arrangements. I barely see her and after he got custody of her he moved hours away and with having not much money to pay for train tickets he knows this has made it increasingly difficult to see her and build a positive reltionship with.

so basically i am trying to get some money so i can move into a 2 bed house. Mainly so i can fight for my child back and so amelia has her own space and i can start implementing a bedtime routine, and a routine for thoughout the ehole day. . I cannot fit a bed for my 2 year old in my bedroom, she has to sleep in my bed. And i love cosleeping but cosidering i spend every moment with her i would love to have my own bed at night to relax in and calm down.

theres truly so much going on and i would be so hally if i could just xome home to a home, not a dump ive been dumped in when i left care..

Thank you so much for taking your time out to read this. I would be so grateful for any donations given!

Thank you,

Kayleigh,

AmelIa,

& Rayanne