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We're raising money to donate wheelchair for Antenatal Unit and Delivery Suite at the Queen Elizabeth Hospital, Woolwich. On 27th August 2017, we felt it could have saved a life. I was 30 weeks pregnant and rushed to the hospital. I just didn’t realised the pain would have escalated in 10 minutes. If wheelchair has been available, some where I felt baby could have been saved and I shouldn’t have gone through so much a pain walking and taking stairs to get to Triage in Delivery Suite.

Please read the story below and donate what you can. All money raised will be used to buy wheelchair and donate it to Queen Elizabeth Hospital, Woolwich.

We were expecting our first child due date 4th November 2017. The pregnancy was going well until Week 26. I was fine after first four months of nausea and pregnancy sickness normal as other pregnant women; fully enjoying my pregnancy and counting each days, feeling kicks and movement inside. I have given all medical history of my siblings, my BP was okay, no protein detected, everything was just normal. Regular check up at the hospital, midwifes, sonographer, consultant, follow up; I followed every instruction hospital gave me. I have been sent to FAU where they monitor the baby’s heartbeat.

On 24th August 2017, I went to see my midwife for usual appointment. She sent me to the hospital as my BP was higher than normal. We went to hospital to FAU and they sent me to Triage. Doctor was called for more detailed check up. He explained what was wrong and admitted me to check baby’s movement and to check my BP. He told us then baby is small and worst to worst I might have to go for C-Section. He gave me steroid on a day and kept me in, 2nd dose of steroid was given on Friday night after 24 hours of first dose. On 26th August Saturday, I was discharged with instruction went home happily and excited.

On 27th August, I started to feel slight abdominal pain. It was bearable at the time and we went to hospital and on a way I had extremely bad headache. When I reached to the hospital my BP was really high and had to go through emergency c-section. The process we went through is just unexplainable. I had a HELLP syndrome which I wasn’t aware of until after couple of days of c section. Unfortunately, we were given news in an operation theatre that they couldn’t save our baby boy Aditya while they were doing something on me. I was taken to recovery room and then to a private room on Delivery suite room 9. You can hear baby crying from other rooms and it was devastating. We simply don’t have a word to describe our feeling. All our dreams are shattered. We were completely lost as we were looking forward to hold our baby and to sing a song, hold him tight, to hear him saying mama and baba, to see him crawl and walk and laugh; our dreams were just taken away. I felt so empty I don’t know how to start over again. No parents should ever have to go through that. My husband kept telling me it is my health we need to take care. Friends and family who visited me at the hospital said the same. BUT I AM BLANK.

At this moment I wish more information has been shared related to preeclampsia and HELLP with mums to be, how to be aware of what signs to watch for. I hope more information will be provided in future for mums to be from day 1 they go and visit community midwife or hospital.

We went home after staying in hospital for 12 days as my heath wasn’t great. My husband didn’t leave hospital and stayed with me for whole of this time. We were given chance to see baby and hold him tight whenever I wished to. Every time I saw him, I kept asking to myself why hospital couldn’t save him, I was 30 weeks pregnant and you hear lots of news baby being saved when they are 26 weeks. It was especially hard for my husband when he need to go to the council to register birth and death, then arranging funeral of this little angel.

We both decided that on Aditya’s funeral we will say good bye with butterflies and couple of roses as I being a mum feels he might not carry the weight of the flowers. And request guest who attends funeral or support the cause could donate money instead so that it can be used to buy wheelchair instead and donate to the hospital. Even one wheelchair can save life and pain I have been through.

Thank you for taking time to read my story.