Hi, I am making this account to help save my life.

Before speaking about myself, I would love to post a think of an article I have written myself:

http://waragainsteatingdisorde r.com/2018/02/05/hidden-voice- eating-disorder/

Five years ago, I had started to focus a lot on my body, and on my food Intake. While all this started, I wasn’t completely aware that I had a problem, however, I wasn’t feeling good, and that led me to self-harm, and do some other behaviors to stay alive. Over time, I started to reduce my food intake and that slowly started ruining my health and I still wasn’t sure what is going on but I somewhat knew that something is actually wrong. Later on, with time, I used to be so hungry, so I used to eat for continuous 5 hours non stop and then purge it all out. I reached to a point where I didn’t eat for 2-4 days and with time, my body became weaker and weaker and that’s when my health got worse, later a sudden click happened when I fainted, I realized what I was doing is completely wrong but I was still in denial. My family are not aware of anything going on, and now I have finally started going to therapy around 2 months back and I honestly cannot afford that. I used and finished all the money that I had saved for my education in therapy. And now I can’t even afford one therapy session but I know I need help and so I have created this account so that I can stick to therapy, the therapist mentioned that it would be better for me to see her twice a week but therapy here costs too much. I used to see her once in two weeks. And now I can’t even afford one therapy session. I know at some point that therapy will help keep me alive. However, I think I might need to also see a doctor in order to take some medications to help. I started taking sleeping supplements in order to sleep. And things are coming all together. The treatment is costing me a lot, just therapy, for now, I plan to have is also not governmental and I have no insurance to help. So I am not sure how to make it through. I am currently looking for a job to help me with therapy though I am not sure how can I work when I am in this mental state. It is really appreciated if I can get some help. I promise that if I was able to make it out of this alive, I will make something to change and help people who are going through an eating disorder, depression, anxiety, or any other mental disorder or illness. Maybe if you could spare even $1 or 5 it would help me save up to pay for more sessions. It took a lot of courage for me to even start this, but with your help, I can survive it. I need help. I finally realized I need help. And Thank you so much for spending some time to read my story.