Hello, my name is Michael. Since i was 13, I've been confused with who I am.
I felt wrong (if that makes any sense). I didn't quite understand it but i never questioned anything, until i reached the age of 14, nearing 15. I started to become more and more uncomfortable in my own skin. I started to hate myself and I felt like a stranger in my own body. At this age, i learnt what transgender was, and learning about that seemed to make everything fall into place. I was born in the wrong body. But unfortunately, i didn't tell anybody. Coming out in highschool was a big no. I didn't feel safe. I was bullied a lot and coming out as transgender female to male, would have just made everything worse for me. So i suffered behind closed door. And I suffered quite a bit. I struggled on a day to day basis. It was hard being somebody that you're not.
When I got to college, i didnt come out still. I felt like i couldnt. If i did, people would look at me differently. I'd get judged and they wouldn't see me as me anymore. Even though I wasnt me.
I tried to fit in, got into a relationship with a person that wasn't so pleasant. But come my second year in college, im now nearing the age of 17, i decided enough is enough. I came out to my parents and my friends. I got all the support i could ever ask for. Though i did have to leave my college course because of the people in there.
But, for three and a half years now I've been waiting to start my transition. I'm now 19. Im still on the waiting list and i might have to wait an extra 2 years to get testostrone, and i simply cant wait another 2 years. Each day is getting harder and harder and i feel like I'm getting nowhere. So, someone suggested to me to start a fund rasier and hope people would donate and help me go through with my transition privately. I would really appreciate it if i had some help. Even if its only a little. Thank you all so much, for reading all this.
Many thanks,
Michael B Williams.