Hi each and everyone,
My name is Michelle Naomi Francis Williams. I have been desperately and frantically trying to secure a private rented accommodation in the Haringey area of London UK, N17 since last year. I have had absolutely no joy at all so far and it is now April 2022. I have exhausted absolutely every avenue. I have contacted the Department for working pensions, social services department, the community mental health team, NHS, council department dealing with discreptionary housing payments for rent in advance and deposits, women's aid domestic violence refuge help line, the police force, individuals, legal aid solicitors,
online website's for private rented housing,
housing association and council housing advice, family and friends, etc etc etc. And the Government have been censoring me and subjecting me to the most inhumane degrading treatment and exceptional prolonged and inconceivable suffering and trauma. This has effectively been going on ever since I was a very young infant.
I have been rough sleeping and living on the streets during this current spate since last year. I am fleeing from SYSTEMIC VIOLENCE AND INSTITUTIONAL RACISM. I am a Muslim female from a Jamaican background whose parents were invited to the UK from the Caribbean during the height of the Windrush Era. I converted to Islam in 2020 during the world's first International Lockdown ever in history. 2020 was a monumental time for myself as I also got married to my husband in 2020 and for the first time ever I had a real wedding and my first proper marriage, also my first daughter got married in 2020 for the first time, And for the first time since 2009 when I was first diagnosed with mental illness, In 2020 I was not asked to "come and take your medication". The Community Mental Health Team was so terrified of being put at risk to Covid 19, among all the speculation and histeria of corona virus that the mental health nurses responsible for administering the legally required anti-psychotic depo injections every two weeks, literally ran scared with hallucinary and paranoid ideation and sheer scorn and refused to go into work at the NHS mental health services for fear of being infected with covid. So after twelve years of malicious and false misdiagnoses, and forced anti-psychotic steroid injections, that did me more harm than good, (to put it politely) I felt ecstatic and finally liberated.
However the newly found feeling of freedom, euphoria, luck was only very short lived and before long my life long experiences of abuse, exploitation, harrassment, victimisation and violence etc soon returned. It is best to describe the scenario as almost as if I was enjoying a good dream and the BANG I suddenly woke back up to the nightmare reality which have been accustomed to all my entire life. So I didn't find it difficult to RESUME back to a life I have always known since very early childhood. I was not only used to being abused by every man in my life but I was used to being abused by every single person in my life that I had ever known and trusted.
Anyway, In 2020 when every single aspect of my life began to go distrastrously wrong again as usual, I felt hopeless, unjustifiably despised, hated, criminalised,
ostracised, hounded, down trodden, devalued, dejected, torn apart, infringed, violated, beaten down, unappreciated, unloved, etc etc.
But quite surprisingly even though I actually identified with these feelings as NORMAL, and I had been used to living with this stigmatisation all my life, I was not about to accept this lying down.
I thought to myself, now more than ever before I will put up the biggest fight of my life, and I made a firm decision to commit to myself as if my life depended on it.
Because I realised I was literally fighting for my life.
I am fighting for survival and I am fighting a life worth living.
So I took to pen and paper and wrote down by hand a buisness idea that i had had over many years.
I was determined to make this intrinsic idea my goal. My aims have always been to be a totally independent non profit charity organisation so as to develop this ultimate quality of character strength within this group of african/Caribbean women centered group/organisation and
very importantly a protected category or group, obligated to upholding the equality laws. Black And Female.
So that black women feel empowered in themselves and in who they are. For far too long generations upon generations of black women like our mothers, Grandmothers and great grandmothers, share the same stories of facing inadequate help and support and more so non at all. Yet the reality is we as black women are generally not recieved with the same regard or recognition in our own right independently as black african women when we are most likely statistically to suffer far worst in comparison to "OTHERS" especially white Caucasian females. The same goes for black men who are the biggest statistics of systemic violence, and black african men are disportionately over represented within our criminal system, lack of opportunities for "DECENT OR WHITE COLLAR JOBS".
Black African Women are second in rank worldwide when it comes to systemic violence. Black Men are Number One Victims of systemic violence all over the world. It really brings home the reality when we reflect on Widely recognised International Campaigns like BLACK LIVES MATTER which is synonymous to my buisness idea which is to create a safe space and theraputic environment for black women to run to and feel safe and somewhere they can feel valued respected and BELIEVED as black African women.
Without fear persecution, betrayal and mockery and indignation.
I am appealing to the general public for charitable donations so that first of all,
Me and my young "sister", can find a home to live. We want to be safe, away from systemic violence and systemic racism.
We are rough sleeping and we have been made homeless. This has been for a prolonged period of time, and our experiences has been of degrading and inhumane treatment. We are suffering unduly and exceptional hardship of the most inconceivable imagination.
Our suffering is most intolerable and hard to withstand. We are no longer willing to except council or housing association property, because we have been ostracised and persecuted so badly in the social housing sector. So.much so that we literally fear for our lives if we are subjected to those abhorrent institutionalised shanty Town, projects. As survivors of systemic violence involving repeatedly being raped and sexually assaulted, exploited financially and sexually etc etc social housing is an entirely inappropriate and ineffective solution. We are asking for help to secure a longterm stable tenancy with a private reputable Landlord. We are looking to share accommodation so that we can support each other as a family unit.
We give each other emotional, financial, physical and psychological support. We feel our bond necessary to prevent to prevent any further and future risk of harm. We accept each other as family, and we have watch out for each other.
We are looking for a 3 or 4 bedroom house with 2 or 3 bathroom facilities, because we are both females and we suffer from severe bladder and bowel incontinence.
We are not in anyway politically affliated.
We just want a safe, clean, decent and respectable home to live which finally we can be happy for once in our lives and have somewhere that can provide us with the stability and sanctuary we feel we deserve as human beings. We would also.love a garden so we can grow our own food. Over an entire lifetime of abuses our health has suffered and the immense hardship has taken it's toll on our health physically and emotionally.
We need somewhere we can heal together with our complex history, only we can understand how we really feel and eaxactly what we've been through and knly we can truly understand what it is really.like to be black and female in a racist upside down world. We have developed a mistrust of authority so therefore we are appealing to your altruism to donate money so that we can cover the costs of a private rented 3 to 4 bedroom house with garden, the garden is for the purpose theraputic healing purposes, so the garden is really important to us as part of our recovery. We need the rent to cover at least 3 years consistently, so that we never have to deal with any problems in covering the costs of rent from the housing benefit section or any failures from the DWP. This would be a huge set back if we were let down.by these government agencies.
So we are pleading for costs of a private rented 3 to 4 bedroom house with garden.
And the costs of furniture to make our new house a home. And also I am appealing for private medical costs for my young "sister" Naomi who will.be sharing the new home with me, to pay for her private medical bills to have her teeth fixed and cleaned by a private dentist and costs for her to have counselling, therapy, and any other medical bills for any medication. and treatments such as gynaecology treatment for possible complications and embarrassing problems and illnesses that Naomi requires to get back to.looking Normal again and boost her self confidence and self esteem. Hopefully in the future at some point I would like to see Naomi get married have her children back.in her care before it's tooblate. And generally settle down, be a picture of health and radiant glow, and be happily married with a family again.
Also I appeal to the world, that I would like financial help to run my own non.profit charity independent of state organisation to support black women and girls of African origins and african descent. African and Caribbean women. Because of all the set throughout my entire life, unfortunately I have not been able to have professional qualifications, or significant work experiences. So at age 52 years old now, I have lost out enormously in building up a substantial career. So I would really so.much like to fulfill my dreams of running my own non.profit independent charity organisation for black women and girls. I have a lot of valuable experience to share with others and to encourage help and grow the potential of others. So that have confidence in their own right as black women and achieve a wider sense of beneficial knowledge growth and development. Me and Naomi don't have a penny to our names, we barely have a pair of clean knickers at the moment between us. PLEASE HELP ME AND NAOMI ACHIEVE OUR DREAMS AND REACH OUR GOALS. LAST BUT NOT LEAST, I WOULD LIKE MY ORGANISATION TO BE NAMED AFTER CHRISTINE. CHRISTINE WAS ONLY ABOUT MY AGE, BUT UNFORTUNATELY CHRISTINE PASSED AWAY LAST YEAR. CHRISTINE IS THE YOUNG LADY ON THIS PROFILE PICTURE.
CHRISTINE IS A BLACK WOMAN OF AFRICAN DESCENT WHO WAS BORN AND LIVED HER WHOLE LIFE IN JAMAICA.
AS YOU CAN SEE FROM THE PICTURE CHRISTINE HAD A HORRIBLE TOUGH LIFE. SHE WAS A VICTIM OF SYSTEMIC VIOLENCE. DOMESTIC ABUSE, MENTAL HEALTH, RAPES, ASSAULTS, HORRENDOUS AND SENSELESS VIOLENCE, SHE WAS EXTREMELY VULNERABLE AND AT RISK. FOR A LARGE PORTION.OF CHRISTINE'S LIFE SHE WAS ROUGH SLEEPING AND LIVING ON THE STREETS IN JAMAICA. AS A RESULT OF SUCH UNIMAGINABLE HARDSHIP AND INHUMANE DEGRADING TREATMENT CHRISTINE DEVELOPED A LOT OF PHYSICAL AS WELL AS MENTAL HEALTH PROBLEMS. CHRISTINE COULD HARDLY RATIONALISE AND EVEN KNOW WHAT WAS HAPPENING AROUND HER ANYMORE. AS YOU CAN SEE CHRISTINE HAD AGED PRE-MATURELY FOR HER AGE. CHRISTINE WAS ABOUT MY AGE.
I AM 51 NEARLY 52 YEARS OLD THIS YEAR. CHRISTINE PASSED AWAY LAST YEAR. IT WAS VERY HARD FOR ME TO DIGEST AND ACCEPT. I FELT VERY ANGRY. I SO MUCH WANTED TO GIVE OUR BELOVED CHRISTINE ALL THE HELP AND SUPPORT SHE NEEDED. YET I AM SUFFERING MYSELF. HOW CAN I REACH OUT TO.OTHERS WHEN I AM AT A HUGE DISPARITY AND DISADVANTAGE MYSELF. ALL I KEPT THINKING WAS, WHY DIDN'T SHE GET THE HELP AND SUPPORT SHE SO OBVIOUSLY AND SO DESPERATELY NEEDED A LONG AGO.
CHRISTINE WOULD HAVE BEEN HERE NOW TODAY IF ONLY.
IN MEMORY OF CHRISTINE FROM JAMAICA, AND IN MEMORY OF MY PRECIOUS BEAUTIFUL COUSIN NAOMI WILLIAMS WHO PREMATURELY PASSED AT AGE ABOUT 21 YEARS OLD. MY COUSIN NAOMI WILLIAMS AND I WERE NAMED AFTER OUR BELOVED AUNTY MOMMY. MY MOTHER'S OLDEST SISTER IN JAMAICA. AUNTY MOMMY WAS ALSO A VICTIM OF SEXUAL DOMESTICATED AND SYSTEMIC ABUSES. AND IN LOVING MEMORY OF MY PRECIOUS GRANDMA IN JAMAICA CASSETA BLISSETT. RIEP.
PLEASE DONATE TO MY CAUSE.