My journey started when I needed a fresh start as I had really bad times with my ex and needed to get away so I moved to turkey on November I found a man that was perfect for me we found out on the 16th January that we where having a baby we was so so so happy I was 6 weeks when we found out but we got abit worried that if I stayed in turkey for my pregnancy that we wouldn't have enough money to make our baby's life a good life so we decided for me to go to the uk so I could work and save and so could he save to and I would do the pregnancy and everything here then go back to turkey and show my beautiful baby to his daddy but we wasn't expecting for this turn out on the 27th of February I was so excited going to the hospital to see my baby for the first time and for my baby to have all its features this time and be moving about but the news I got was from the nurse as the scan started all I heard was "I'm so sorry Stephanie" I just instantly froze and went numb I couldn't believe I was hearing them words and I was on my own .... I got sent home to make a decision on how I would like to remove the baby I said I would go home and think about it ..... so the next morning on the 28th I started getting contractions I was so scared and hurt at the same time as I new this is real now my baby's going away from me I can't help my baby grow anymore make my baby safe anymore ...... the worst day of my life having to walk out of the maternity hospital with my baby in a box and seeing everyone's beautiful baby in car seats it was like nails were in my heart I just never imagined my lil baby would be coming home this way

i just really want to give my baby baby a good send off and so I can still go see my baby and tell them that I love them every day because regardless the consequences that baby is still my child and I'm there mammy it's the worst pain in the world

also I need to do this with my child's father in turkey and i have been trying so hard to find jobs but there saying no to me and it's making me more and more sad because all I want is my child to lay at rest and to be with my partner

i never do anything like this but I have no other options but I will do anything for my child ❤️❤️

R.i.p my beautiful angel