Story
As some of you know we lost our son Jack at 17 weeks. He was born sleeping and it was the hardest time in our lives.
I had taken my nan along to hear the heartbeat, meant to have been a nice occasion and as as she moved the monitor across my showing belly, the midwife started to frown. A deafening silence filled the room. The midwife couldn't find a heart beat and sent me for a scan. Waiting in that room at Kidderminster, watching all the expectant moms and seeing all the little babies, I knew. I knew he had already gone.
But nothing prepares you for the look on the sonographers face or on Edwards face and then seeing him lay still on a screen. Lifeless. No more wriggles and flutters and the heart laying still. It feels like a nightmare and you cant even hear your own screams. Our feet didn't touch the ground. Within two hours we arrived at Worcester Royal ready to be induced into labour. I had to give birth to our dead son. I wasnt ready, I couldn't do it.
The moment we arrived we were shown into what looked like a pleasant hotel room, home from home. Double bed, en suite. The midwife hugged me like I was family and talked me through things. We wanted for nothing and could most importantly, stay together, we had a fully stocked fridge and didn't hear a baby or see another mom. we had our own garden which was full of memorials from previous moms. There was a box with messages from them too. It felt like I had loads of arms wrapped around me holding me together. I wasn't alone.
Without that room, without those people at Worcester Royal our tragic nightmare would of been unbearable. They paid for his cremation and funeral and even a little coffin. He was honoured. He mattered. He was born still but was still born.
Help me thank them by raising money towards a second suite so when this happens in 1 in 4 pregnancies, the moms have less chance of having to go in with the healthy babies and happy moms.
Thank you for taking time to read our story!
"Twinkle twinkle little star, up in the sky is where you are, when its dark and you shine so bright, I look above and blow a kiss goodnight" we love you Jack x