Hello, my name is Natalie.

I don't know if its best to write a long and detailed story or if its better to keep things short? I want to be sincere so guess i'll just type ...

About me -

I trained as a mental health nurse and for many years have worked to help others.

I cant say that my journey so far has been a entirely pleasant one but like everyone, i try my hardest to keep strong and make the most of what i've been given.

I have chronic mental health issues that stem from an abusive childhood, in short, EUPD and complex PTSD which i'm receiving therapy for but there is no immediate cure. Unfortunately these issues have caused problems for me over the years; my prolonged ability to work, develop social interactions and enjoy peace and happiness.

I find this world difficult to live in, the suffering and cruelty is sometimes too much to bare. Each day is hard but i know there are many others who endure far worse so i have to keep trying.

I try to be proud of who i am, i always try to help others, i'm kind to the environment, i cherish the natural world around me and wish deeply for all kinds of suffering to end.

I choose to live a quiet and simple life, i don't seek wealth or popularity, the things that matter most to me are love and compassion, for all.

My situation -

My mum died unexpectedly earlier this year, i was heartbroken after caring for her for nearly 10yrs.

Mum was a wonderful women, she was my guardian angel, my rock, my best friend. She would do anything to help others, she'd give away her last penny if it was needed. She wasn't financially rich but had the richest soul i've ever known.

Her wish was for me to stay in her home because she knew it was my safe place and that my health would deteriorate following her passing. She tried to safeguard my position as best she could but sadly i'm facing the now urgent situation from a complicated challenge to her will, that will potentially renders me homeless if i cant raise the funds to buy the two other parties out.

I also have two dogs, one of which was mums baby girl. They mean everything to me.

Sadly ive now exhausted my savings, i wish i had the money to manage this myself but i just don't.

I cant really express the distress i'm currently feeling; i'm scared, i'm lost, i'm struggling to hold on. The dogs can sense something is wrong. Losing mum was bad enough but losing all of her things, her closeness, her presence, so soon after her death is just terrifying.

Being a private person, sharing this and my story fills me with shame and guilt, i feel such a failure but part of my therapy is to try to be compassionate to myself (not an easy thing for me).

My fundraising goal -

This is a very hard decision to make but in exhausting all possible avenues i face the tough decision of having to ask for help.

I need to raise £200k in total. This target is huge i know and during this difficult time i know that money is tight for many but my hope is that i can reach enough people who might kindly give me £1 so that mums wishes and my hope can continue.

Mums cottage is not big, its not grand, but its home, she is here with me, her memories, her love and her indomitable spirit.

She loved her house, she tendered its garden, she felt safe here, it was her piece of heaven here on earth. I really hope it can be mine too, its all that matters to me.

Thank you for taking the time to read my story. I don't know if there is an option to contact me directly but if there is, and you want to, please reach out, i can tell you more if needed. Any suggestions are also greatly appreciated.

I know i'm a stranger and i know this is an enormous ask but if my story resonates, please help.

I don't know many people so if you can share that would be amazing.

Thank you.

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