Hello everyone, my names Nicola, i have never in my life asked strangers or the public for anything but im in a very desperate situation 😔. Myself and my partner mark moved down to devon just over a week ago. For my health really, i had a stroke after my cancer, which has given me black out epilepsy. I cant drive and ive fractured a small bone on my back, toes and other things, so my situation isnt the best. Ive been living in an afluent area in Bristol, but i still needed to take out a loan for this move. Im not able to work and Mark is my carer. Ive already been through my partner committing suicide before, his name was Lawrence Risdale, i was his fiance Nicola lambert. I was ill then, had cancer, had just lost my dad and it sent me into a nervous breakdown. Then i met my Mark, he took all that pain away but i wasnt aware he had his own mental health issues 😔 ive been with him for over 3 years and hes stood by me through all my illnesses. We decided after talking to my family, that being by the coast would the best place for me to try and heal. Our landlord lied to us about the area in Torquay we are, he said it was a lovely area. Its not, weve both been scared every single day since weve been here, there are nothing but druggies, alchoholics, broken glass, needles, drug packets, neither of us feel safe and we have 2 small dogs. Yesterday it all got too much for my Mark, he took a massive holdall full of all his pills with him, a pair of kitchen scissors, i just knew in my heart what he was trying. When i saw the post he put on facebook, i nearly died. I couldnt stop him, he threw the keys at me, i couldnt go look. I love this man so much, i hate seing him in so much pain and anguish. All the money i borrowed went on moving here and i have none left. The police took him too Torbay hospital and he was seen by a mental health nurse. They said he needs to get out of his living situation, i want to help him, i want to help us. I cant bare going through suicide again, i need to move for his sake.

I feel so embarassed asking all of you lovely people but i am honestly at my wits end, even if you can donate £1 every single bit helps.

Thank you so so much in advance, i pray god will give back to you for your kindness ❤️🙏