Like 14 other families that day, our world came crashing down around us on 17.4.17 4am i woke up with mild period like pain and thought to myself brilliant im finally having a period after going a few months without one ( i hadent had one since last year) i got up to go toilet and all of a sudden the pains were getting heavier and more frequently.suddenly it dawned on me that i might of been in labour as ive had 2 children and the pains started to feel like i did when I was in labour with them.i felt no movements what so ever so I thought surely i can't be pregnant.In my previous 2 pregnancies i had severe morning sickness but had nothing in this onei woke my partner up and told him to ring for an ambulance and explained everything and they refused to come out as the information i had given them didn't indicate i was pregnant, so I would have to wait 6 hours for the on call doctor to ring back. I couldn't wait that long so my partner rang again at this time I could feel myself needing to push they immediately sent an ambulance out and rushed me to hospital.i gave birth on route to the hospital and he was perfect. the paramedics were abit concerned about the colour of him he was pale so they gave him some oxygen untill we got there.He was rushed to neonatal unit whilst I was on labour eard delivering my placenta.... Next minute the doctors came round and told us to expect the worst as he was very poorly. his lungs weren't developed properly and his kidneys were damaged too. he later died at just 14 hours old. We lost our son Steven to lung failiure and also blocked kidneys. We didn't know we were pregnant it was a surprise but we recieved the sad news he wasnt going to make it and sadly he passed away aged14 hours.

No one really talks about neonatal death but the numbers are staggering: #15BabiesADay are sadly lost and the UK are really behind in tackling this issue.

The purpose of the Cuddle Cot is to keep the Baby's Body cool to preserve it, this gives you time to spend with your Baby and time to say your goodbyes to your little Angel. We were told the Cot can allow you to spend time with your Baby for up to 36 hours

A Small donation (or Large if you like) will help make this happen, Every single Penny will be going to the Cuddle Cot fund and we appreciate any amount Big or Small. aim is to raise the funds and donate a cuddle cot to the funeral home(Co-operative funeral care) in memory of our son and for families who experience this terrible loss to be able to spend more time with there babies

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