Hi,I'm raising money to help myself to try and live again. That's my story, 6 years ago I came to Great Britain for work and for love.The beginnings were very difficult, 18 years old in a foreign country and the only thing I had was my boyfriend.However, this love was not so obvious, my boyfriend started to reject me because I thought I was taking his freedom, so he left me, I landed on the street, then he came back to me again and despite the pain, I came back because he was the only person I loved, which I knew. Such a return and investigation lasted for a year, after which I became pregnant. Great news right? You might think, I will have a child with a man I love.However, this is just an image, at the news of pregnancy, he sat in front of a laptop and looked for a clinic for abortion, but he found it too expensive, he left the house and came back telling me that my pregnancy must be hidden, I was not allowed to go to the doctor, I was supposed to do everything so far, and tell people that I'm getting on with weight if I will not do this he will live me on the Street again. Now you probably think that I could ask people for help, I could, but then I did not know what to do, how, where ... Nothing. I hid pregnacy, on day of birth, he told me to walk to the hospital on foot, in labor pains, when I was running out of water, I went to the hospital. My boyfriend told me that I give birth to this child and give it up for adoption, having an image of what I have lived through last year and 9 months, I decided that my son does not deserve, he deserve his father who will love him. I give born, and then a small one was taken. How did I feel? As if most important piece of me died.5 years have passed and I still can not move here. I want to start again, I want to come home, to Poland, I want to leave all the nasty places. I do not want to wait for it that I can live here with these worst memories. Maybe it's a good time to go ahead. Today I am 24 years old and I would like to try to live on.