Sam's story

So my life has just got real...
Many of you know I've been fighting breast cancer since Elsie was only 6 weeks. 2017 wss hard & felt like the last 6months I was finally getting my life back to a new normal (&hair).
However things have taken a turn for the worst & unfortunately after only 6 months the bastard cancer is back & with revenge! It has been confirmed as being in my lymph nodes, lung & bones. The worst news me Jason & girls could ever ask for. It does mean that I am now stage 4 incurable & I will forever be fighting a losing battle. We are hoping chemo to try to keep me stable & give me some time with my precious family.

Breast cancer comes in so many forms & unfortunately the one I have is ‘triple negative’ which is bitch! I am currently looking into alternatives for treatment be it in the UK or not. I am desperate for any hope.

This is hardest thing I have ever written but makes it easier way of telling people. I may look ok but actually I’m not. I’m tired, my heart is breaking living in the fear of not being here for my girls. Knowing I won’t see them grow up or even start school let alone leave & become adults brings me to tears everyday. I love my family so much knowing this crap will take me is something I will never be able to explain properly to the children. But all they really need to know is that I love them more than they will ever get to know!

All I’ve really wanted in life was to marry my childhood sweetheart (Jason) & have a family. I have accomplished this & so proud especially of the little people I have bought into this world. All I ask that you promise me that no matter what my future holds that forever you will hold my families hands and make memories. I don’t want the girls to remember me poorly I want happy memories & for them to know really who I was before all this shit!

I don’t want I’m sorry I need strength for us & hope that I will get just some time to love and enjoy the amazing people I have in my life.