So if you've been following my journey on twitter.. I have been in a state of no between all my life, I never really understood what the hell was going on with me at all until I started to explore thoughts I had that scared the bejesus out of me and when I did, I then started looking for people who had the same thoughts, and through that, I explored being Gender Fluid/Non Binary, but after a while (about a year) it just wasn't enough and I started to get bad depression/suicidal thoughts again, so I went back to the same people, the same resources and I started to really challenge myself and what the hell was going on with me and one day I decided to make the leap from Gender Fluid to Transgender/Trans Boy.. I dropped GenderFluid (most everywhere) and I dressed boy, called myself a boy, felt, like a boy, my sexual interactions were and are, as a boy and wow, the DIFFERENCE it has made to my LIFE is .. no words. I have been, for the first time in years, able to leave my house, do things with my kid outside the house, get out of BED and WANT to live.. I feel.. better.. I feel.. more like an actual person, like the person I was meant to be. It is impossible for anyone who doesn't have these feelings to understand this thought process and this way of living, it screws with your head so badly. I had body dsymorphia so bad I was hurting myself regularly, every time I got dressed/did my make up and looked in the mirror I just didnt want to be, I hated everything about me, I considered surgery, everything, I HATED myself, but since accepting this side of me, thats almost all gone, I take a photo now or I look in the mirror now and I am HAPPY with what I see. I am starting to BE happy, to remember what HAPPY is.

But, obviously, my sex is FEMALE, I do not have a 'penis', science is not in a fit state to give me one and its so expensive, so, in the mean time, I want to purchase something that will enable me to feel more like the boy I feel like I am..

This is the product if you wish to take a look and get a better understanding of why I am choosing such an expensive product (I have raised over 50% of this myself): https://transthetics.com/product/the-bono-super-realistic-strapless-strap-on-and-packer

So please, take a look, TRY to understand where I am coming from and if you want to help, every single £ helps!! If you don't, thats OK, thank you very much for just reading, and I hope you go out into the world having a better appreciation at least for people like me and you can give them your better understanding.

Skye x