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everyone keeps asking me what's wrong? you're so beautiful you shouldn't be so down and sad.
it seems like Im at rock bottom. but I thought I was last week. last month. last year. it just keeps digging deeper. and I have struggled with anxiety disorder and depression disorder for the last 9 years which makes it way harder to cope. I have anxiety attacks multiple times every single day when I try to fight what's going on and make it better. some days I'm too depressed to even move out of bed.
anxiety and depression have been a part of my life for almost 10 yrs. it's hard as it is suffering from both. it's like two devils on each shoulder. one is saying "you have so much to do let's do this and that etc" while the other is saying "you're not worth it you're pathetic and a waste"
#depressionawareness #anxietyawareness
a lot of people don't understand the level of stress I'm holding right now on my shoulders
so here's a very personal post of what my struggle right now is like.
im hoping and praying things will start looking better for me. somehow. someway.
But it's not going to get better yet. I'm losing my mom. my best friend. the only person that I truly have. and she doesn't deserve the cancer she has. never smoked in her life. It pains me to even think of losing her but it's a reality I somehow have to deal with. my mom is my rock she keeps me level and I am scared to lose that.

this conversation is mostly about recent events. there's much more. my goal is to leave and start fresh. somehow. I think I deserve happiness.
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