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This is about my mom's growing tumor and my education.

My name is Subham,i from Nepal and i'm 20 years old.I'm currently studying BIT(Information technology)This campaign is for supporting my education and my mother's condition.

My story in short. (not a native english speaker so please bear with me)

So my father left us when i was in grade 5 and i'm living with my mom since then... things were and still are really hard like in bad condition after my dad left us. We barely had any money to buy food. We lived in the same apartment for more 4 years but the landlord kicked us because we didn't payed rent for whole 1 year but they were good enough to let go of that money.They were really nice people.(rent here is cheap like starting from 100$ a month ,at that time it was cheaper so for 1 year it was like 500$ i think).

My mom is weak (Because my dad used to physically abuse her and also heridity thing) so it was hard for her to work.... we are barely living.We live in 1 room(with attached bathroom) with all the furniture we had .... it barely has any space to walk... but we happy with what we have.My mom has me and i have my mom.We are happy.

You cannot get a decent job here if you don't graduate college

,i'm not the kinda guy who likes studying but somehow i passed high school.... there is still some due money left... but they were nice enough to give me the certificate for college,Right now i'm studying Bachelors Of Information Technology .... the college is not that great but better than nothing!!Its cheaper than other college. They are letting me to go there for the first 6 months for free.... because of my story.

My country is not the best country out there.... average income per year here is like 2000-3000$ because of the corrupt politicians!!

One and half years ago my mom used to feel pain in her chest , she was weak so she thought it was because of that. But it got worse so we had to go to hospital. Later she was diagonised with tumor in her chest.We somehow managed the bills and got some meds for only 2-3 months.But things got worse these past 2-3 months. Her left part of the chest got bigger and i could see it with my naked eyes.She used to feel pain more frequently than usual.It getting bigger slowly.... i don't know but people say it leads to cancer, which is Teribble thing, i'm in more stress these days.I don't want anything to happen to her, she is the only person i have left in this world.

So Please please please!!! even if you have 1 dollar to spare then please do help us out!!! I don't know how much you can !! but even if its 1$ then its ok.... because like they say "Little drops of water,Make the mighty ocean". If you don't have the money then Please do SHARE this to your friends and family!! Will really help me out.

And if anyone like to keep on reading my whole story then here it is... i can go on for ever but will try to keep it short as possible... so here we go...

So basically there were 3 members in my family Me, my mom and my dad. My mom was 17 years old when she got married.It was arrange marrige.(don't think they allowed love marrige that time).My dad was kinda abusive so he used physically abuse my mother from time to time but my mother was and still is generous,loving and sincere(no one knew about that but us). She endured all of it and still loved him.We are from a middle class family .... had every basic needs we wanted.

And after 2 years i think!!She gave birth to me.... i was healthy and raised very well had nothing to worry about... but my dad was still abusive.... didn't abused me when i was a baby though!!

Things went by pretty fast.We were really a happy family(good old memories).My dad was into politics he was really good at what he did . He was not corrupt like other politicians. I was really proud because he was MY dad... always wanted to be on his side.He used to take us out into different restaurant once every week.He always gave me everything i wanted... but was still abusive sometimes.

But after some years later when i was in grade 4 , he started to act strange... he used to come home late.... he was ignoring us more than usual... i was still a kid so i always went to bed early so i didn't noticed it, but my mom thought he had maybe more work than usual and because of stress he acted that way.

But things got worse, he used to come home after 1-2 days , he used to take the money that my mom saved for emergencies issues... but still my mom thought that it was some kind of work related issue.

Thing got worse day by day.... mom and dad used to fight more than usual he sued to abuse us more. I always used to go to bed crying.But one day for some reason he took us for a long trip for like 1 month. That was an experience of a lifetime, got to saw different parts of my country.... i was really happy at that time.After that we got home.

Then one day dad said that he will go to work related trip for a long time... so he won't be coming home. So we used to talk over the phone like everyday. But one day a friend/co-worker of my dad called my mom saying he hasn't been coming around to work for quite a long time lately.(i will make this short)

So basically my dad was lying to us(what do you expect?? he is a politician so ofcourse he must be specialist at lying) He was actually in the same city that we lived in but with a girl(She is kind of a hoe who sleep with like 2-3 men every week.... don't know what my dad saw in her). My mom found about that... called my father , had a fight , my dad didn't came home for like 2-3 months. Eventually he came home but what could my mom do ?? she was in tears , she was just happy that he came home. I was happy inside but angry outside , i was just a kid what could i have done??... but he actually was there just to take his clothes and some leftover money we had.But my mom gave him ... after that he took off again. This happened over and over for almost 1 and a half year, he used to come home after 2-5-7 months break respectively ... but after that he never came....He had fight with his mom and my mom's family as well. He didn't cared about his own mom who gave birth to him. Don't know what was going on in his mind he left us but wasn't a divorce.

And our financial situation got worse day by day."In nepal we eat rice,lentils and some vegetables with pickle and meat sometimes." But we barely had any money to buy them... so my mom used to eat just 1 time a day without me knowing and used to give me the foodinstead of her so that i wouldn't be starving.Things were rough like very rough.When i think about that now it makes my eyes full of tears thinking how much she loves me.(again keeping things short)

My dad's mom loves him the most .... she told my mom not to do anything to him.Most of the old people here are not educated. So in our case, if my mom filed a divorce case then both my mom's and my dad's parents were scared what would the society whould think if their children divorced.These cases still are in presence but much less.

(My grandma loves me too but she had/has her own problems to worry about but sometimes like once or twice a year used to send us money).

My mom has 2 elder brothers.

The elder brother has average job and younger one has really nice job but you know what.... they NEVER like NEVER supported us in their whole life. Let alone us .... they won't even help my grandpa and grandma.Their condition is also not that great.They don't give a shit about them the person who gave birth to them. So our relation with them is not that great either.

Only my mom is the person who help others.Even if she doesnot have anything she still cares about other people no matter who.if she can help even with little bit of effort she will do it.

So if i get enough money i would like to help my grandma and grandpa too... they belive in me.... and i don't want to let them down.

Like i said my mother is weak. so she cannot work.I was/am not that interested in studies ... i can get really good at studies if i try but its just not really my thing. So i failed in 10th grade... gave "back exam"(you can take the exam again if you failed in 2 or less subject ..) So i passed that... Went to high school(we call it +2/college here) Barely passed without touching any books. And here i am Studying "IT" in a shitty college.... but you know what... something is better than nothing.The whole bill is almost 25k$ but they said 18k$ is enough for me.Which is hard for us to cover.

And my mom was diagnosed with tumor in her chest sometime around last year,got meds for 2-3 months , after that no meds.But now, i can see with my bare eyes that its getting bigger in her left side of her chest. I don't really know but people say it can lead to cancer which can be a bad thing. Don't know how much it costs to cure it.

I barely have any money left after i receive my pay... i get like 150$ a month(it maybe hard to belive but average income is 2000-3000$ a year), have to work my ass off just for that... barely have anything left inside me... sometimes i think about killing myself,doing illegal ways to make money but after thinking about for some time i feel wrong.I know that its not the right thing to do because i was not raised like that and get hold of my self.

But i have my mom ... she gave birth to me .... i have to live for her and make her happy. She says she has survived this long and she became what she is now because of me(because of the experience got after my dad left ,she became strong willed woman) and she is proud to have a son like me !!!I don't show much but i doo love her.... AND I AM WHAT I AM RIGHT NOW BECAUSE OF HER AND I WON'T LET HER DOWN .

And by the way my mom doesn't even know i am raising money for her and my education. If i get the money .... she will be so surprised... hehe.

Well... anyway if you came this far thank you for reading , there is ALOT like alot to say about but needed to keep it short.

And yes i am posting this on other crowdfunding sites too... because i need money ... and i am saying this frankly because i have nothing to hide...

SO if you want to help me please do ... if not then its ok too.... but be sure to share with your friends and fanily.

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don't let your loved ones down.... and always be sure love your mom and dad because without them you wouldn't be what you are right now..... thank you.