I really hate myself for doing this as I feel that I should not be asking for money as there are people who need it more than I do but this is my only choice. I’m not really sure what to write here so I’m going to write a summary of how I found out I was transgender and some of the things I went through until now.

Ever since I was a young child there was something different about me compared to other boys my age. I felt uncomfortable doing the stereotypical stuff young boys did and I was always more gravitated towards more feminine activities. My mother was the person who told me this although I can remember this quite well. I did not have many male friends growing up as a result of this but I fit in a lot more with females (I’m still friends with some of them today). Although this anecdote is slightly embarrassing I will talk about it anyway because I feel that it sums up my feelings quite well. When I was young (around 4 – 6 years old) I used to always tell my mother that I wanted to be a girl when I grew up. When she would tell me that it was impossible it used to make me cry a lot.

It was only until I was 11 when I found out that the feeling of being a female trapped in a male’s body is a real thing and I was not on my own. I found out through my friend telling me that a musician we both liked started HRT and is transitioning.

Ever since I found out I had been doing research about HRT and everything else involved in transitioning. I wanted to get help from the age of 12 and I did to an extent. I used to speak to Childline whenever I felt that things were getting to rough and needed some advice and I also spoke to some old online friends. However, I felt that it was a bad idea to seek help to get treatment as I was worried I would not be taken seriously at my young age so I waited 5 or so painful years which is around now.

Recently my depression and dysphoria has risen to the point that I feel that the only way I can improve my life is to start HRT. Whenever I look into the mirror I see a man. I hate this more than anything. Although taking hormones will not resolve everything, it is still a big step in helping my dysphoria and my transition. This may sound over exaggerated but it will truly make my life worth living.

I am now at the age that I can start HRT without having to have my parents find out but the only problem is money. I did not want to ask for money but there is no other way I can afford the treatment. Yes, I know a job would help with this but with my current state of mind I can barely go to school let alone go to school and work at the same time. I will roughly need around £350 to start the treatment. I cannot wait for the long waiting times to do this through the NHS so I have to do this privately.

Prices:

- One off price for the private clinic: £195

- Skype session to talk to a member of the staff: £75

- Blood test £50

- Monthly payment of £30 to the clinic

- Hormones: £20+ monthly

These prices may change if I can negotiate a smaller price but it is not looking likely at the moment. Some of this money I will get myself from selling things.

If anyone could help me out with this I would appreciate it more than words could ever describe. This treatment would mean so much to me and will make my life worth living. I’m so sorry to beg for money but I am only doing this as a last resort. Even if you can’t help out by donating, sharing this would help me out just as well so please share this if you could.

Thank you for taking the time to read this, I appreciate it.