For anyone who knows me personally will know this was a long time coming. I am making this page today because i have simply ran out of options and this is my only hope. Since the age of 15 when i first started to develop my breasts they have been a complete nightmare! At first not physically just the mental trauma of not been able to wear what the other girls wore, not been able to get cute little bras like my friends, not been able to go a day without someone making a comment or giving me a nickname relating to my chest. Most the time forced to wear baggy jumpers just to cover up. Not once i have i ever truly been 'proud' of what i have, never have i gone by the rule 'if you have it, flaunt it'. Many times i cried to my Mom who was equally as upset as i was, especially when i had to have my prom dress custom made which cost a fortune because my hug boobs couldn't fit into a size 10 dress. So i didn't get the 'dress shopping with the girls' experience. By the time i was 16 i was around a 32HH and struggling to come to terms with it. When i was 18 i asked about a reduction but i was to young, so year after i year i went back and my doctor wouldn't even refer me. so getting well into my 20's i gradually rose from 32JJ to a 32K and this is where i have been ever since, trying to lose weight from them is no good i just lose it off my chest they just droop. I finally had a doctor understand my predicament, she took one look t the indents in my shoulders, the cuts and raw red marks on my rib cage, she saw i needed help. First appointment came at the hospital, the surgeon wouldnt even look at me before saying you are not your BMI you dont qualify you need to be 9 stone, I have never been nine stone even when i was a size 10! at only a size 12 now and a 32/34 back apparently my breast are not out of proportion?? He wouldnt even believe he said no way you are more like a 36/38 back when he pointed to a skinny nurse and said she is more a 32/34 back, bearing in mind he has not even let me take my coat off.. in fact my back is tiny and it always has been, this is why as im getting older my chest is starting to affect my back and my shoulders, I went to physio to help my back but even he said this is not a long term treatment an apparently my back was not right for that of a 28 year old. If i want any hope of happiness and to have a day where i dont have to sleep in a bra, or not be able to get into clothes, to gain any confidence back or to simply to not bleed in the summer months i need to have private surgery which is a whopping £6000. I know im not the worse off person out there, but i do know i need some help. if i can get just half as a deposit i could probably do the rest on finance or maybe even save the money. I hope people reading this can understand especially you ladies maybe you have the same problem or you can relate in some way. I really need this and i will be uploading pictures of the day to day injuries the breast cause me. Thank you for reading my story. Terri xxx