So as people can see in my picture I look happy. Ive spent my whole life so far caring for everyone else that i forgot about myself. Recently i was diagnosed with BPD ( borderline personality disorder). This is a mental health condition that is emotional unstable personality disorder that can also cause other effects of other mental health problems and ive been diagnosed also with severe anxiety and depression. unfortunatley in my case this was a triggered condition from my past i went through a traumatic experience through my young teens. It started to take tole one step at a time on my life and will forever be a burden i cannot get rid of. It started as collapsing during my Gcse exams, followed by random blackouts, not remembering where i am. It has now destroyed my inner confidence it makes me feel completley vunerable. The thing is people are not aware how mental health can effect people. I just want you to imagine this for a minuite;

You feel very worried about people abandoning you, and would do anything to stop that happening.

You have very intense emotions that last from a few hours to a few days and can change quickly (for example, from feeling very happy and confident to suddenly feeling low and sad).

You don't have a strong sense of who you are, and it can change significantly depending on who you're with.

You find it very hard to make and keep stable relationships.

You feel empty a lot of the time.

You act impulsively and do things that could harm you (such as binge eating, using drugs or driving dangerously).

You often self-harm or have suicidal feelings.

You have very intense feelings of anger, which are really difficult to control.

When very stressed, you may also experience paranoia or dissociation.

Never in a million years would i normally openly talk about this like i am or would even think about crowd funding but due to my state at the moment im struggling to keep my chin up. Me and my partner are looking to start a new life in the isle of wight as my trigger was to do with my home town. My gp and family believe a new start somewhere else may help me to control my condition.

If you could help me to reach my goal it would literally be a dream come true a new start a fresh atmosphere and most importantly hope.